Wheewww last day of doing this everyday for a solid month...I only did this because this is my birth month, and I never seem to stop with always highly decorating it anyway that I can.....I'm sooo sorry I have gotten behind on here so much, I will get caught up, eventually though...it's just really really hard to do anything at all whenever I get home on the weeknights 7-8pm and all I have time to do, or that I feel like doing is getting a shower (of course), and crashing into bed then... Not very exciting but I feel so exhausted I could cry sometimes.....I'll go back and fill it all in with something, I can find something to talk about, as much as I go on about stuff just on here for one day, when nothing here really happens to begin with really....or I don't think it does much.....same old stuff here really....I had another one of my birthdays come and go here...this was the year of me being away from my family and missing it with us all going out together and all that other....it seemed like kind of a normal day at first really kind of boring cause it's just us over here, no one else really, and I don't get into it over here with anyone...everyone is very cliquish, and stays with only who they know, or who knew the ones before them, and it's all "very small town attitude" I think...not my thing, I care nothing about this at all.....it's only been a couple days, and it's already turning into a blur kind of.....I got all kinds of birthday wishes from so many I can't even remember, and got sent flowers and balloons there at my work, and then everyone at my work gave me small cake with more balloons....sooo nice but soo much to try and carry!!!! It was good time but went very quickly I think....We went to nice Italian restaurant that night, cause I didn't want anything else here since I have serious problems with everything mostly.....that was really nice place and I got another cake and they sang "Happy Birthday" to me in Italian....=) brought back memories cause that's what they did to me whenever we were living there and went to places there.....=) hmm that was about it I think, cause I was so exhausted from the whole day, I didn't care to do anything else...I tried my best to get ahold of my family over and over...I finally managed to do this on a very shaky cell phone, and they tell me they are on the river walk in San Antonio going on a ferry and there is festival going on.....then why I am here??!!!!??????!?!?!?!?! I should be doing stuff like that, not stuck here with a bunch of people who will barely even talk to me....they told me they were going to rotating restaurant high up that was round that night to remember my birthday and everything like that.....too unfair I thought, I couldl hear the tour guide on the ferry boat and everything, and wanted to be pulled through the phone so badly.....then I would have 2 celebrations cause they were a day behind us there.....I missed our Arts Festival back home in downtown area, it was this month also....I went to those every year growing up and loved them....here nothing....all Japanese things, all Japanese interests, everything Japanese related....anyone who is Japanese wouldn't understand this because they think the world of this place like this is the only place in the world....it is all they talk about and can relate to...they don't know any other place it seems.....that had me burning for a few hours and the last few days here, nothing I could do of course, but sounded sooooo much fun....I would love to do all that too, but with friends of course and someone who knew their way around cause I'm definately no help on that part ever.....yah I wouldn't want to sit and talk on a cell phone either if I was on a ferry boat either.....so in a few days maybe it's too maddening for me right now.....hmmm can't wait for time to keep passing like it has been lately here, I"m not sorry, and won't be to get on the airplane and leave where ever it is to next...hopefully someplace decent and that's not another small nothing town....I don't get on with these people here at all....they go and get a paintball gun, and shoot around at each other in parking lots here when they can....I don't go near any of that...I would completely lose it over and over again if they hit me with one of those things and it got all over me and in my hair...i would go to the gym across the street and get a shower if that happened....it won't cause I'm never around it and just avoid it.... hmmm people here I will never get ever....they tend to mostly stay to themselves I think, and just talk and hang around who they already know or are some how aquainted with.....I can't stand going anywhere here ever cause I am always gawked and stared at, and then people start kind of poking at each other making gestures towards me....(?????) what is up with that really???? They never say anything to me ever, but just do that.....it's pretty annoying not to mention embarrassing like crazy...to me at least I can't stand that kind of attention being directed towards me ever.... I always tend to try and hide behind my hair and have a book or something else in front of me that I pretend to be interested in so I won't have to put up with people's constant stares at me, even though I can still feel them....so I get this, others get jealous or whatever, and get mad at me for some stupid reason, and I"m not even the one who is doing anything....trying to disappear from this side of the earth mostly, but of course that doesn't happen in reality.....people give me these nasty jealous never ending glares, and I have no idea what their problem is....usually when someone does that, whether I know them or not, and I usually don't, I automatically think and feel that that instantly completely hate me....pretty dumb I think, since I thought only kids were supposed to think and feel this way. I had no idea that would still follow me around into my adult years....nothing I can do, nothing I care to worry about, but it goes on, and I know not just here....hmm my birthday was only 2 days ago, and my balloons are already going down here, that sure didnt' last very long....it was fun while it did though....only one more day then the weekend....I simply cannot waaaittttt...I"m getting dead tired now, so I'm going to take off for now....I hope everyone is doing great and we can have a chat soon sometime on here....don't want to bother anyone if you all are busy with your own things!!!! just drop me a line whenever you can!!! we all know how it works!!!! okay hope you all get through the last day of the week ok!! I'll put pics up here soon of what I got, probably one by one, because it exhausted me just thinking of moving everything into one big pile, then having to put everything back....=p I'll work it out though don't worry!!!! alright talk with u soon!!! have a good/day night where ever in the world u all may be!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo miss u all!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tU7tV4GCmWw- The Climb-Miley Cyrus) hey there Today is my birthday!!!!! =) thank you to my friend who sent me this pic, it's too cute!!!!! thanks to all of you for being my friends over here, it helps me deal with it more than I can put into words!!!! I am still working on getting caught up on this, and I will eventually, but it is just going to take me awhile!!! I hope you all are doing awesome...miss u all so much, and hope u are doing fabulous!!! do take care and drop in and say hi to me when you get a chance!!! *<=)

Hey there everyone happy weekend to you all....wow I"m so happy it finally reached the weekend I was about to go nuts....I hope I"m not the only one who feels like I just sometimes just have these "never-ending" weeks sometimes.....I guess that comes from being so bored at this place and times just seem to draaaaaaggggg on.....hmm not too many interesting things have been happening here at allllll.....it's hard to believe this month is nearly over with, and I will pass another birthday here being overseas away from my family again.....this is the 6th year of me being away from everything that I have known before....still can't help missing how things used to be really, and I don't think I ever will be able to accept that they will never be that way again, no matter how much that I am reminded, or others keep reminding for me....hmmmm what a nice day it was today just getting to do whatever I wanted to, chatting with those that mean the most to me and just completely relaxing and not having to worry about a single and oh, best of all getting to sleep more than I usually do......what a glorious feeling that always is.....hmm tonight I went to really nice restaurant out by the airport here with Hawaiian theme for entire thing there...there are several of these same places all spread out here, all based on Hawaii, looking like it on the inside and out, so it's a lot of fun to go to these I think....Since they are based on Hawaii, a lot of it is American type things so finally I didn't have a problem with this place like I did with the other one that just focused on at most atmosphere and everything else was completely disgusting and pathetic...to me at least cause I don't like anything here hardly at all....this was mostly seafood place so I didn't have a problem with it finally finally finally......I was tooo happy cause I"ve been to places here and wouldn't have anything and just sat and had water or something or my frozen non-alcoholic drink thing and then went and got something later but what fun is that??!!! everyone else is having a good time and you are just sitting there mostly watching everyone else enjoy....I seriously can't get used to this junk over here I don't care what anyone says I won't touch it, I won't even look at it, I get fussed at to try it blah blah blah...I think I"ve gotten worse now than whenever I was younger....Anyways...finally I got to go to a place that I actually didn't have a problem with....so how happy was I.....=) =) =) I've been to Hawaii, so I knew how it was there, and they modeled everything after there from the bathroom to the flag....pretty creative I thought, and it was pretty up scale so finally no annoyances either..... Only problem I couldn't stand was that they did everything traditional way, even though it was more American-based than Japanese.....they did everything in courses so everything was very sloooowww and spread outtt...a lot of waiting just sitting and I got bored to death...I don't fuss that much or that long just for dinner...they did that in Italy...2 hours for one meal each time each day and it drove me crazy.... I think I could only put up with that twice and then I came up with a series of excuses why I couldn't go to those things.....always with a group, but I don't care just to sit and sit and do nothing in between...(I'd rather be on here than sitting at some boring table with others I don't even know!!!!!!) I got tons of pics, the best I could though, it was really really dark so I was more or less just shooting blindly.....I'll get them on here later on though so hope u all enjoy taking a look and everything......nice place great everything, made me miss Hawaii soooo much!!!! Not sure why they decided to go with Hawaiian theme since this is Japan, but okay whatever....still enjoyable.....Not much else is going on here, mostly went for the road trip!!!! longer than 5 min and not just across the street from us....I saw a hotel themed like Las Vegas on the way back with huge huge movie type props on the top, sides and all around, so I hope to go there sometime at least just to get pics.....it was pretty amazing, and I've been to Las Vegas few years back, before moving to Italy, and everything was sooo sooo huge there....would love to be reminded of it, and see something that's close to it at least....so why would they put someone like me on some boring island if I have been all over??!!! I wasn't meant to stay in one place like ever!!!! too maddening to even think about....18 more months left after this one....hope it flies by more than I ever imagined cause it's all I dwell on these days.....hmm I got another musical type clock hung up today, so altogether I have 7 of these....such fun whenever it strikes a new hour....all kinds of different songs are going off one after another just seconds apart....I got stuck on those things a few years ago, and now can't seem to stop since I can get them myself and just put them all over now....I think they're fun and like all the different songs going off...it gets a little annoying at times, but it's much better than dead silence and kinda livens things up a bit.....okaaayyy guess I'll take off now....I'll have the pics on here by the end of the weekend.....hope everyone is doing super and having an awesome weekend....miss u all don't forget to stay safe and come say hi to me when u are on here!!! remember I will always answer u back whether I am on or not!!!! xoxoxo take care!!!!!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=58kD8dWZmBs&feature=related

Hey there all, I am so glad that it is the end of the week finalllllyyyyy....I will get to do a few things of my own for once, as well as get caught up on this thing from the past 2 weeks.....lol....I am so sorry I just have had no time at all hardly, getting home here as late as 8pm, then just being able to get a shower and go straight to bed I"m too exhausted to do anything else....so even my time in the evenings to be on here is starting to become non-exsistent some nights, and that drives me crazy just like it does anyone else who likes to be on here as much as me...and those that know me know that I like to be on here **A LOT**....=) Anyways....these past 2 weeks have dragged on, my weekends have flown by, and I"m hoping that this one will go just a little bit slower so I can get a few more things done, and actually feel some sort of sense of accomplishment.....hmmm some others I work with insisted on doing make-over on me today they had been planning for the last week....I didn't care either way since I am always up for anything, but just the sitting and sitting for 4 entire hours just about drove me crazy not to mention I was falling asleep cause I already stay tired all the time anyways no matter how much I sleep....it was pretty fun, but I never really got into anything with these people or we hung out or anything like that, so I have no idea where this niceness came from all of a sudden....guess we are around each other so much they decided to drop the attitude finally and give it a shot...I can become friends with anyone, I don't have a problem with that at all, but others always seem to with me for some reason about something...anything, I never know what, but I really don't care anymore....so I'm thrilled to see those walls and barriers starting to come down slowly cause I don't like all that fighting stuff over whatever ridiculous things people can come up with.....hmm but 4 hours of sitting and sitting is a little too much for me, that's why I always tend to avoid stuff like that cause I can't do any of my own things at all, defintately not use a computer of any kind, or anything else that requires my concentration or for me to look directly at it....it was fun but I can only take so much of those things, that's why I'm glad they are very few and far between......We have been having inspection and inspectors all over the place here all week long, and all of us can hardly wait for them to leave cause it's very annoying them writing down every little thing that they don't like or just standing there glaring at us, and of course I get this, but have no idea what I am doing to offend these people....I don't know how these totally serious-minded people think so I would guess every little thing offends them if others don't do things exactly like they do them.....I will slooowwwly get all caught up on this thing, even if it takes me the next several months, I will add something little by little to each one on here that I posted on but didn't say anything...not yet anyways....I am just never here, and when I am my time flies by, and I'm not always on when I do actually happen to be here at home....I will get caught up just like I did the other one that took me 3-4 months to....not much is going on here at all....hmm Lily Festival is happening over on IE Island again this time of year....you have to take the ferry boat to get there and back....I went last year and really didn't care at all to go again this year since I'd already seen this, and experienced getting motion sickness and the sea sickness going there and back....but I get sick over everything so that didn't surprise me at all that happened....same exact thing with the whale watching, only that was 10 times worse feeling than just a 30 minute ferry ride to IE Island....you were out Whale Watching for half the day until that evening before going to dinner...oh, and by the way...you really didn't see the entire whale...you saw the fin thing on its back, middle part then tail...that's it...with all the rocking and swaying, and people knocking into me, and pushing me around, I didn't last not even the first half hour on that thing, then I was laying flat down with a few others trying to get over the disgusting feeling of motion sickness from a very active rocking boat....never again for me, I don't care how much other people brag about it, there is really nothing to see, and I can't stand that sick feeling anyways.....I have been to everything here, nothing surprises me anymore, I'm pretty much bored with it all, since this is of no interest to me to begin with over here...esp. being on an island....this isn't the only place on earth, so I don't know why everyone else who is here acts like it is.....(?????) They seem to be that way no matter where I go...like no other place in the world exsists but where ever it is they are living....guess that you will get that from narrow shallow minded people....or also the place they are from....pretty conceited I think, but nothing anyone can do about it........well guess I will end here for now, I'm so glad it's the weekend you all have nnooooooo idea how happy I am!!!! I will finally get to do what I want for 48 hours straight and not have to worry about anything else!!!!!!! I really hope to have a chat with you all if you have the time, and can stop by and say hi to me while you are on here!!!! This is my last full weekend of having fun etc etc...talking to everyone before I turn a new age in a few days so would love to hear from you before then!!!! do take care!!! thinking of you all!!! miss uuuuuuuuuuuuu all!!!! bye for now!!! xoxoxoxoxo

Hello all out there....Please someone else tell me that I'm not the only one on earth who is a closet stuffer...you know the stuff that you have absolutely nooo idea what on earth to do with, but refuse to part with or give away, so just gather it all up, stuff it in a trash bag, and into the closet it goes...far back of the closet that is...and bam instantly neat house....I know that I can't be the only one out there who does this....I have more stuff than anyone else that I know, and I am always getting more just because I can, or have it calling out to me.....I have a serious weakness for "certain colors." I just finished gathering up a whole corner of my cats toys and other things they insist on carrying around the house, bringing to me, or leaving at very interesting places that I never know what I will find next.....that was easy....just pushed into the back of the closet with the other I don't know whats, and let the movers deal with it all whenever they come to pack us up...that's my sweet unspoken revenge for putting me here to begin with so hope they enjoy to the fullest....hahahahaha =) I had to make room to set up a fan cause it's getting so darn hot already, and I wake up in a cold sweat in the middle of the night here, or get into coughing fits out of a sound sleep not being able to breathe properly...what is up with that???? I never had that problem before....it's tooooo stuffy here, can't stand it, and I definately can't stand being hot and sweating all over the place.....I'm not competing for the Olympics.......so I hope that will take the edge off some of this heat and being uncomfortable here....I've seen a few of my friends houses here that they live in and it got me so down compared to where they stuck us here...I can just reach up and touch the ceiling here that is how low it is here.....in the hallway at least.....it's extremely small, we went from one small place to an even smaller one over here.....other places here you can actually walk through the entire house and not have to "scoot" through afraid that you are going to bump into something or someone....nice high ceilings, upstairs and down, more than one bathroom, so much storage room.......I really can't wait to be in a regular place and not one that displays some number or letter on the door, and we have to go and pick up our mail from some teeny tiny mailbox where I never get my mail in the first place like ever.....Just the waiting for all this to end is irritating enough, and others really don't understand how it is unless they are going through it as well....I guess that is supposed to be part of the "fun" of it all, but I really don't consider any of this "fun"!!! hmmm I really don't find what I talk about all that interesting, but from what I have heard, others have!!! So I'm really glad to hear that so much!!!! finally others want to talk with me for once and hear what I have to say....=) such a great feeling after always having to watch what we say over here, always being reminded to be "nice" to everyone that we meet because we are all Ambassodors of the United States, and are over here to set an example to everyone else...that's fine, but one gets kind of tired of hearing all that...like me....=p So it's great to have others out there who want to hear my views and opinions on things!!!!! Alright, I'm gonna go now and get caught up on a few more things while I have the time to do so....I hope everyone is doing great and having a fabulous week.....miss u all....look forward to chatting with you all soon, take care everyone!!!! thinking of you all!!! bye for now!!! =) xoxoxo