***Happy New Year 2011!!!!

So this is my very last entry for the last day of this year...I think that I've done pretty well on keeping this up for 2010... I'd like to see how many more I could outdo myself with in 2011...It's been a quite interesting year, I hated most of it except my part to Australia of course, and coming back home to America most definately...I still can hardly believe it that I"m completely outta of Japan...I somehow feel that I"m just here visiting and going back to Japan later on, but we're done there for good....I should find out perhaps this spring where we're going next after my husband gets done in Korea for all of next year....I"m soooo excited and can hardly sleep some nights....Tonight is our "Opening Night" New Year's Celebration in our Amazing Downtown area...The ball they created raises instead of drops...opposite of the one in New York that drops....They estimate there will be around 60 thousand people there in our Downtown area since it's completely different looking now with ice skating rink outdoors and other parts of it that resemble Venice, Italy.....I saw the 24 screen theatre that we have there as well...Ohhhh how I Have missed that!!!!!!!!!! I can't wait to go perhaps this next week....I'm so excted since everything will be televised tonight and I"ll be one of the ones right in the center of everything like I LOVEEEEEE when it comes to New Year's Eve celebrations....Happy New Year Everyone I"m sooo happy we are friends and even happier that we met on here to begin with....Here's to another year for all of us....xxxx ***CHECK OUT YOUR HOROSCOPE FOR 2011!!!!!!!*** ♥☺
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Sooo Happy To Be Back In United States...♥♥♥♥♥

"On His Plan For Your Life" "Everyone longs to give themselves to someone, to have a deep soul relationship with another, to be loved throughly by another. But God, to the Christian says "no, "not until you are satisfied and fulfilled and content with being loved by me alone....with giving yourself totally and unreservedy to Me alone. I LOVE you, my child, And until you discover that only in me is your satisfaction to be found, you will not be able or capable of the perfect human relationship that I have planned for you. You will never be united with another until you are united with Me...exclusive of any other desires or longings. I want... you to stop planning, stop wishing, and allow me to give you the most thrilling plan-existing...one that you cannot even imagine. I want you to do this and just keep watching Me, expecting the greatest things...keep experiencing the satisfaction that I AM. Keep listening and learning the things that I tell you. You just wait...That is all...

Let Freedom Ring!!! Sooo Happy To Be Home!!! ♥♥♥♥

"Now & Forever Fly Freely When You Wave...In The Land Of The Free And The Home Of The Brave..."

Celebrating 2 Holidays Is Better than Celebrating Just One!!!

I made it through Hanukkah back in rotten Okinawa and made it through the nausiating flight coming back here to the United States, and now I've made it through Christmas...which I absolutely LOVED of course!!!! I got to meet my neice after 7 whole entire years of nothing whenever it came to holidays, and I didn't even want to face the holidays they were so miserable...It was wonderful being surrounded by family and my friends, and talking to my brothers and sisters in law the whole entire day about everything and laughing up a storm over every little thing...something that I haven't had for the past 7 years even when I was in Italy and in Okinawa I NEVER EVER EVER stopped frowning....I finally got my life and my personality back now that I'm off the prison grounds of what they seem to call a military base and back around normal people in a normal society where they speak NORMAL UNDERSTANDABLE ENGLISH...Yessss as you can tell, I still have some (okay A LOT) of hostility in me, but really I am working on that!!!! It will take me a while to get over that, but right now even the mention of that place and I practically blow up and demand the subject be changed right away...I don't want to hear anything about it or talk about it or anything....It's hard to explain... I have no idea how to begin to explain that to someone without them turning it back around on me saying I should be appreciative and all this nonsense and whatever..... Now that I"m back in normal society in a normal neighbourhood, I honestly can't even see myself going back to that disgusting lifestyle with such rotten people...It really messes up your head...Again, something I Have no idea how to explain...I'm just glad that I have my friends to talk with and others to go to and don't depend solely on military to support my emotional well being....I got wonderful gifts, but that didn't even matter to me, I was just happy to be around everyone again, and see everyone face to face and talk on the phone to others in ENGLISH, and spend the whole entire day with everyone doing nothing really of any importance...I got a huge huge huge gift basket f rom Bath & Body works, one of my main stores here I go to at the mall, I practically live at like every other week, entire stacks of Glee everything, movies, movies, and more movies, Twilight anything you can think of, gift cards galore, all kinds of Art things I can't even do them all, and 2 tickets to Boston, Massachusetts and Athens, Greece...LOVE IT.... Just as long as it wasn't ANYWHERE NEAR THE WEST COAST OF THE UNITED STATES I AM FINE WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I had serious problems with people from the West Coast of the United States back in Okinawa, and I never want to come in contact with them again ever...it's nice being able to oil paint again now that I'm back where I finally feel comfortable doing something like that without being harrassed like crazy about it how "boring" it is or anything else like that....I'm very slowlyyyyy getting used to the time schedule over here, but still there are some days where I sleep the entire day and I"m up the entire night getting things done of course...I can't waittt to go back to work and start my college classes again here at OSU Tech..I will finally be around nice normal people again who have things to talk about and carry on a conversation with and not just all military jargon...That's fine for them, but hey, I've got a life and a mind too and love to say things whenever I can....It's turned so much colder here, and I love it...I've been going around in short sleeves and flip flops like I did back in Okinawa, cause I"m so used to it, and it was 86 degrees there when I left finally....Here it's all winter boots and heavy coats and hats...I will get there eventually, but right now, I'm just not ready for it...The cold air feels oh sooo good to me...I'm excited about New Year's sooo much...Our downtown now is completely AMAZING!!! We have "Downtown In December" here now, and they added an outdoor ice-skating rink and horse-drawn carriage sleigh rides...I saw it on the front page of our newspaper and could hardly believe it...I really can't wait to try it out...They put in snow around there and everything, and it's sooo amazing and beautiful....I could hardly believe that was my downtown and the Memorial from the Bombing is just a few blocks away from all that...I can't wait to finally get to see it all...I've been trying to go and do so much, and time has been going along so fast, it's hard to believe this is the last week of this year....I'm glad to be getting it over with, and I won't be sorry to see it end....New Year's Resolutions...hmmm I really can't think of any but to stay outta places like crappy Okinawa for good...wow am I glad to be outta there..I'm just too spoiled beyond recognition for my own good but I like it that way....talk with you all soon I hope the time change is even crazier here since I"m in the states now....take care everyone and Happy Holidays....xxx

Merry Christmas 2010!!!!

Merry Christmas Everyone!!! LoL this is the BESt Christmas song EVERRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!IT'S SOOOO FUNNY!!!!! I heard it online while I was still living over in rotten Okinawa, and managed to log on to my radio station all the way over here in Oklahoma, and just couldn't stop laughing..I actually heard this again tonight on the way home after spending the entire day with family, and it had the exact same effect on me..still LOVE IT just like I did the first time that I heard it....hope everyone else out there gets a huge laugh like I always do...enjoy hope everyone is having wonderful holidays....xxxx

I opened up my 2011 calendar yesterday and what wonderful messages it had on the cardboard separator in the middle...Merry Christmas Everyone...Happy Holidays..so glad we met online....

"When the time was right, the Sea parted, the Walls fell down, the Lions went hungry, the Sun stood still, the Waves were calm, the Stone was rolled away, the Clouds were parted, the Lord ascended...And when the Time is Right, The King of Kings Will Return."

"God is never early and He's never late-He's always right on time and His plan for you is good."

"For I know the plans that I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you Hope and a Future." Jeremiah 29.11 NIV

I know I haven't been on forever...I've been enjoying myself far too much in my wonderful home state of Oklahoma...I absolutely love it here, and don't miss rotten Okinawa Japan AT ALL......I've almost got my sleeping pattern here down-pat, inotherwords, I've been making it the last few nights being able to sleep the whole night through instead of being up the whole night long and finally going to bed at 6am or something inbetween there....It's hard to believe that Christmas Eve is tomorrow...They have been predicting snow ever since I got off the plane here, and people were right on with me talking all over again...Very different attitude than what I got from stupid Okinawa...Everyone was always flaming mad, and frowning, and NEVER said anything to you, unless it was to run you down, or make some other snide remark...I am still saying over and over to myself and anyone else who ends up in front of me "how glad I am to finally be out of Okinawa..." I really don't miss it at all....HONESTLY I DON'T....It's turned freezing cold here all of a sudden overnight, and today I got up to find the sky a medium gray, like when it is about to dump snow down...These days are pretty slow now, since I just moved back, and Christmas is just 2 days away...not much to be done, or that can be done....So everyday right now is pretty much the same until the holidays are over with....It started lightly raining with bits of snow mixed in it tonight....I was soooo excitedddddddd I haven't felt that for I don't know how long....I braved it out there in just flip flops cause I have been around such sticky hot weather for so long, I don't even want to see pictures of it now....I hope that when I wake up tomorrow there will be snow covering everythingggggggggg....Instead of everything now being in English and Japanese, it's back to living in a world where everything is in English and Spanish..that doesn't bother me near as bad as Japanese so it's kind of a relief to see it again...Tonight I was waiting on dinner, and picked up one of the newspapers at the Greek restaurant that I was at all in Spanish of course, then I noticed a small section that was in English in a block and it caught my attention... "In a boxing ring, when a fighter is too battered and weak to go on, his trainer throws a white towel on the mat to show that he concedes. That's where the term "throw in the towel" comes from. We also use it to talk about a frustrating situation we don't want to battle anymore. It might be a relationship that's going nowhere, a dead-end job or a foreign language you're studying but just can't seem to master. Then you say, "I'm about to throw in the towel!" But sometimes years and even decades go by, and you're still clutching that same old towel.

Most of the time the boxers don't want to stop the fight, but the trainer knows letting it go on would be too dangerous, and could hurt the boxer for the rest of his life. In the same way, you should get out of the ring, in time to avoid serious emotional, mental and physical wounds that could do permanent damage.

Just like a boxer, it's really hard for us to give up. We think quitting something means we failed, we're weak. For example, if you "throw in the towel" after years of marriage, you feel like a failure, of if you're forced to close a business you started, you feel like a loser.

As a motivational speaker, I'm always encouraging everyone to never give up, since perseverance is one of the keys to success. But we still have to be able to recognize those situations when we really ought to say, "It is time to quit!" The question is: how do you really know it's time to give up: There are three reasons to "throw in the towel"; because you know in your heart something just isn't right for you, because you've lost interest, or simply because you've had it up to here!!

Stop wasting your time energy or money on something that's never going to get any better. If you gave it your best and did everything you possibly could to change things and still nothing improved, it's time to get out before it's too late.

Quitting doesn't mean losing, it's more like an act of courage when you admit that a certain relationship, dram or desire isn't working out and you should just let it go. Accept there are some things in life that are not going to work out no matter how much you beg and plead and struggle, but something better will come along.

Let go of what's not good for you so you can make room in your life for the things that really are meant to be. Only surround yourself with what brings you PEACE AND HARMONY."

I Didn't Write This But Couldn't Believe How Beautiful It Was... :) ♥

Here I love you.
In the dark pines the wind disentangles itself.
The moon glows like phosphorous on the vagrant waters.
Days, all one kind, go chasing each other.

The snow unfurls in dancing figures.
A silver gull slips down from the west.
Sometimes a sail. High, high stars.

Oh the black cross of a ship.
Alone.
Sometimes I get up early and even my soul is wet.
Far away the sea sounds and resounds.
This is a port.
Here I love you.
Here I love you and the horizon hides you in vain.

I love you still among these cold things.
Sometimes my kisses go on those heavy vessels
that cross the sea towards no arrival.
I see myself forgotten like those old anchors.
The piers sadden when the afternoon moors there.
My life grows tired, hungry to no purpose.
I love what I do not have

I Finally Made It Back To Where People Are NORMAL, and I'm Not Caged In Everywhere I Go....

Let's see...Today is Tuesday here finally..wow time sure has flown the past 4-5 days...I remember leaving Okinawa and having a VERY MISERABLE FLIGHT and not getting to move around very much feeling sick of course with no one believing me again, and then finally reaching the United States...Two whole entire days of that mess...we left on Saturday morning in Okinawa and it took us until Saturday night here in the states cause we were back tracking to finally get here....I never want to go through something like that again...My first stop when I reached the place where I belong??? McDonalds...AN AMERICAN ONE...NOT A JAPANESE ONE FINALLY....Then Sonic 50's drive-in and the ever so famous joke-cracking Wal-Mart....I call it that cause there are so many jokes about it and everything else that I have to catch up on, but I still love it and I couldn't believe I was seeing everything again I was so familiar with and everything was in English and not some Japanese in bright yellow with a green background....I am still trying to get situated and trying to get used to this crazy twisted time change here...Since I am still on Japan time, I am up all night right now and I sleep the entire day or a very good part of it...I can't wait until that's over with and I get on a regular schedule again and used to the time here...It's freezzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzinnnnngggg here and I absolutely LOVE IT...I can't get enough of it, and am up to the minute on watching and waiting and listening to when it's supposed to snow here since it did so much on the west coast... I know we won't get that much, but even some I would love to see and go out in and take pictures and get to feel snow again... I"m not missing Okinawa at allllllllllllllll...Infact, I'm trying desperately and my very hardest to forget that place as much as I couldn't stand it....Everything has changed so much here but in a good way...I still have to learn my way around again it's confusing and very different than being on one military base where everything is right together and I live in a whole entire city with the main part of downtown just 15 minutes from me at the most....I'm planning on going there for New Years like I did right before I left for Italy...I couldn't think of a better way to bring in 2011 than to spend it downtown at our Opening Night....I can't believe Christmas is next week...sooo excited and don't even care if I get anything or not...I'm just thrilled to be out of Okinawa I can't even express it enough...I never want to hear about that place again....

4 Whole Years In Okinawa Japan...I made it cause I LEAVE TOMORROW!!!!!!! BON VOYAGE TO MEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!

Hello again everyone...Today was my very last full day here in Okinawa, Japan...How did I spend it??? hmmm sick in bed half the day from stomach flu... I have no idea where that came from out of the blue, but still can't figure out for the life of me why oh why people here want to go around and stand in a circle EXAMINING VOMIT in the parking lot....Glad that time is over with now, and that it only lasted for part of today, but I still lost part of my time left here on what I wanted to do before I had to leave..like go around saying my good-byes to everyone which didn't happen...glad there is always internet...but still not the same....Still it's hot here on and off I won't miss this at allll and can't wait to see snow and ice again once I get to Seattle, Washington.....Since my whole entire weekend is completely shot with flying..I definately hope next weekend will make up ten times over for this lousy one...can't waitttt to talk to everyone again once I get settled whenever that will be....hope everyone is enjoying the holiday season now...I've been too busy getting everything together and trying to move back to the United States for an entire year to really enjoy anything...hopefully soon though...take care miss everyoneeeee....xxxx

I just have tomorrow then I leave for good from Okinawa...I'm sooo excited...These last 3 weeks seemed to have dragged on at times having to just be living out of temporary lodging but I got through it...I watched documentaries on France and Turkey a few night back...Loved it...hope that I will be stepping foot again in those places really really soon since I made it through living on an island for the last 4 years.. People can't even seem to believe that when I tell it to them wondering how I've lasted this long...I can't seem to believe it either but I'm just glad that I got through it...My cats from Italy are once again coming with me...I"m so glad that nothing went wrong where they weren't able to..Not too much of anything that is really eventful or exciting is happening now...I've just been getting ready to fly out on the weekend and somewhat nervous and excited at the same time...I'm not exactly looking forward to spending 14 hours on some airplane without a shower for that long and having to put up with everyone else around me with their gross habits....I just can't wait until my everything comes finally to America off the boat so I can have my computer back up and running again...It will take about 2 months I'd say for me to get settled and get things back to normal...It's been quite interesting getting to experience "Island Life" but it is DEFINATALY NOT for me!!! I know now never to go whale watching again whenever I do get back to normality from here...nothing but rocking back and forth and seeing the backs of whales and then instant sea-sickness kicks in..esp. for me so never again....I'm still to happy to have met everyone on here though!!!! take care and I will chat soon...

Happy 8th Day Of Hanukkah!!!!!!!!

I've only 2 more full days left here in Okinawa....It still seems to be dragging even this close to leaving...One thing I will be glad to get away from are people bragging it up they have this and that decorated for Christmas when I don't have ANYTHING and have never even had a Christmas tree and have been living out of a cramped hotel room for the last 3 weeks.....It just seems completely unfair so I hope it passes soon...I'll be flying all weekend long, so this weekend is definately shottttt....I miss everything of mine that is somewhere on a boat in the middle of the ocean right now that I won't see until after the New Year...I'm not even sure when I'll see my comptuer again and my laptop won't connect of course in the room I'm in...I'm glad there is only 2 more days of this mess cause I'm pretty tired of knocking things over and not being able to turn around cause it's sooo cramped....but finally....NO ANTS.....NO BUGS....NO SPIDERS...NO LIZARDS...AND NOOOOO FROGSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't stand any of those so I'm glad they haven't been around cause I surely haven't missed them!!!!!!!!!! It's turned colldddd here like cold for us in the 50's when it was just in the 80's the beginning of this week...Very strange weather they have here, and I never have gotten used to it...I've said it the whole entire time that "I'm not an Island person and never will be!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I started looking at houses online UP ON THE EAST COASTTTTT SINCE THAT IS WHERE I BELONG ANYWAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!! just for a nice thought to have and an escape from what I have to put up with now and what I have to keep living in now moving around as much as I do....I honestly can't wait to have a permanent home one day after moving so much..I get everything set up and it's all jerked out again and messed up...I don't know where anything is now again and it's going to take me all year to find anything before they come and pack me up again to move where ever it is to next.....I found one in the shape of a castle with 3 different stair cases♥♥♥ I hope it will still be around when we're ready to finally stay put.... ☺

Happy 7th Day of Hanukkah!!!!!!!

Happy 6th Day of Hanukkah!!!!!!

Going around with a group of my friends the whole entire day is sooo exhausting...I had toooo much fun though and can't wait to do it about 2 or 3 more times before I leave here for good....I am down to 5 days here now....I can't believe I've lasted 4 entire years here on an island of all places....I'm just glad I had internet this time around and made a heap of new friends for others to talk with...I still haven't made it across this street in the last several days...Today was 77 degrees but might as well say 80 since it was just plain HOTTTTTTTTTT here....I couldn't believe that was December weather whenever everywhere else is having major snow storms and everything....I've forgotten what that is like and can't wait to be around it again..I will catch up on everything on here, posting my decorative pics etc once I get over there...hopefully sometime tomorrow....It was toooo hottt today and I was worn out through and through after escorting my friends around here who live off-base going around to every little thing I can think of to show what it's like for me being here....I enjoy doing that too much though since I know where everything is now and have no problem whatsoever.... So just a few more days of out-processing and we're doneee....I"m soooo excited I can hardly sleep some nights here and then am dead tired in the daytime....I imagine my sleep is going to be messed up royally for about 2-3 months whenever I get back to the states since they are a day behind there...Not sure how all that's going to come together but just sooo excited to move on....

Happy 5th Day of Hannukah!!!!!

So this was my very last full weekend here in Okinawa...I made it a good one, but everyday right now seems like the weekend until I get my life going again back in the states with work etc... and everything else set up like it was here....I only have a few days left here....five to be exact and we leave Saturday mid-morning sometime....I'm sooo excited but going to miss soo much here with what I've grown soo used to the past 4 years....I'm just grateful to finallyyyyyy be moving on from here...I've made sooooooooooooooooooo many new friends I can barely keep up with everyone..I don't have a problem getting along with people, so that's not an issue for me anywhere I go or being on here....and with me thinking just about everything is funny or disgusting or something or other and making wise-crack sarcastic jokes about whatever it is, then it's definately not a problem....No matter how much I like to be pampered and have everything done for me, I always can't go through with everything....I found out today that there is no way ever I can go through a massage ever ever ever.....I am soo far tooo way beyond ticklish I wouldn't stop squirming when they were just doing it halfway up my leg when I went for a pedicure before I go back home...There is nooo way I can go for a full body massage like I hear so many others talking about and how good they feel...I'm sure they do, but I would never last ever...I can hardly stand to get the very bottom of my foot touched without halfway loosing it and squinching away....not sure if that's even a word, but it can be one of mine.....I neverrrrrrrrrr want to go through that again....It was just an excuse to get out of the hotel room for a few hours and not have to wait on a computer when they are free in the middle of the night here and I have nooo problem then...;D hope everyone had a great weekend...I'm soo ready to get out of living out of a hotel room and back to my own of everything.....good night all...

Happy 4th Day of Hanukkah!!!

My messages got erased againnnn on here so I"m sooooo sorry everyone who is trying to talk with me!!!!!!!!!! I'm not ignoring anyone I promise...It's crazy logging onto a computer that isn't mine and it knocks me right off and I lose everything then...so I have no idea who has contacted me or who hasn't because of that... >:p I am getting last minute things ready for my longggg forever plane ride next weekend....This is our last full weekend here in Okinawa...Kind of bittersweet really, but I"m sooo ready to go I can't even stand it anymore....We had the Christmas tree lighting tonight and the Christmas village all day today...It was all mostly for kids..I had no idea what I would do at something like that....And it's the exact same thing every single year...I"ve seen them every year I have been here..There really isn't much of anything interesting happening now...We are just inbetween waiting periods now so everything seems even slower than it was before just trying to wait it out...I'm still not able to put pics on here until I manage to make it across the street, and I haven't been able to the last 2 days...It's always full or closed, or I"m just not around to go and kill time being online...I'm sooooo excited about going though...only this week and I am done here being on this island...I can hardly believe it when I hear myself saying it.....I can call anywhere in the world on a phone here so I'd love to call anyone who would wanna talk with me!!! happy holidays everyone!!!! talk with you all soon!!! xxxx

Happy 3rd Day of Hanukkah!!

I made it through my going away party today...I felt half-way sick through the whole thing but was sooo glad it was over..Just another excuse to give me a reason to keep wringing my hands out over and over and bite all my nails off...which I'm trying desperately NOT to do.....This is my first time online all day long....I can't believe I am down to a week now being here in Japan....I'm halfway excited, nervous, and completely beside myself....I can't waitt though to start over again...I've been here soo long that it's all old and boring now and just the same things year after year again and again....Things are winding down finally so there's not much left to do...I really can't wait to get my own computer back once it has done all that needs to be done to computers every year...Just wish it wasn't right in the time that we are in the middle of moving and I'm stuck using cyber cafes which completely bore me and block half the things I want to do on here....This one does at least...the other one across the street and down the sidewalk I can pretty much do everything I want to on it....It's turned sooo chilly here, and I don't have any winter clothes or anything...I mailed them all back home and I am freezzinnnnngggggg now.....I tried to go look for winter anything here, but nothing..it was all party clothes and things like that cause it's all Christmas parties this time of the year.....I think I will try a few more places until I completely give up, but I only have one sweatshirt that zips up the front...Not sure where this cold front is coming from since it's always so hot here and 80 degress in December. I will add pictures on here tomorrow...hope everyone has an incredible weekend..this is my last full one here in Okinawa...next weekend I'll be flying out...I never thought it would get here..I"m too happy to have met everyone while I was living here.....I've the greatest friends ever...good night all....xxxx

Happy 2nd Day of Hanukkah!!

Happy 2nd Day of Hanukkah!!! =)

Happy 1st Day of Hanukkah!

Happy First Day of Hannukah to everyone else out there that celebrates it!!! Love this holiday tooo much!!! who's ready for those 8 crazy nights???? :D :) xxxx