Wednesday, March 27, 2013

this was one of my runway songs when I was in modeling...beautiful song and gorgeous lyrics...yes and I'm changing the layout of this thing tomorrow cause I'm about to go blind...I had no idea that pink could look so disgusting and just down right ugly when slapped together like this...I would so like to know who actually thinks that is attractive...maybe if you are into abstract art perhaps?? I will pick back up on this when I get my university things up here in Alaska sorted out and things aren't so upside down crazy changing universities from 2 different places...dying for my Art classes to start again, sometimes I can hardly sleep at night I can't wait...I finally graduate next year class of 2014 and then will keep going on for the next 4-6 years cause I am NEVER working with such dead beats like I did over in Japan always causing so much drama and trouble (mostly with me of course) and then somehow everything is my fault...I'm getting so far ahead of them and so high up that they won't be able to see me...I plan to get at least 3 maybe 4 degrees including 2 masters cause I have just completely HAD IT with people who won't give up with acting just plain stupid...yes I've totally snapped, and everyone around me says I've changed so much, and I'm completely different, but that is what living on a rotten island for 4 years of your life will do to someone...and the very reason why I took off to Australia for a solid month to get away from that place...then I came back, and everyone hated me for going there...I really can't help wondering what it would be like to be around normal people for once with decent attitudes and who don't go around acting like they are going to prison in the next half hour and it is entirely your fault...not sure where that comes from, but the ones out in Anchorage are just fine, and are actually nice, and yes they talk to you and don't act like you are going to kill them if you talk to them first...No more language barriers finally...such an incredible feeling...no one else has any idea what I'm talking about unless they have been to other countries and have run into that...try getting completely lost in a town where no one speaks English, and all the signs, directions, maps, streets, businesses, etc. are all in a language that will make you go cross-eyed...that has happened to me about 4-5 times and I never want to go through that again ever...so few more months then nothing but studies for me again and flying through them so I can finally graduate up here in Alaska and leave everyone else with soured attitudes in the dirt...looks like a lot of people are going to be eating a lot of dust while they stand there with their mouths open while I'm graduating...Yes I've completely snapped, but making a memory of it...so thrilled to pieces that it's up here in Alaska...

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

I've put toooo much work into this thing to just drop it all of a sudden, so I'll just hold my breath and continue it I suppose....(yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnnn)

:O too bored going back to facebook now...