oh yeah, and I'm done with this thing by the way!!! finally free from here...Facebook wins. sorry).

I've got 6 months left to live. 

ALL SPEECH CLASSES MUST DIE..;

I.H.A.T.E.F.L.I.P.'N.S.P.E.E.C.H.C.L.A.S.S.....ABSOLUTELY NOTHING OR NO ONE ON THIS PLANET EARTH CAN DO ANYTHING TO CHANGE MY MIND...HAD ONE OF THE BIGGEST FIGHTS THAT I'VE HAD ALL YEAR...oh wait, that never stops cause I'm always around military...SOMEBODY KILL ME PLEASE OR TRADE LIVES WITH ME...MINE IS TOO DEPRESSING!!

I've got the most funniest, and most incredible friends on planet earth...this has to be the best conversation of the year so far...this was several days ago, and I still can't stop laughing!!!



"I don't know who is more stupid and pathetic, the people selling coupons, or the ones buying them...."


"Not really, the people that are selling, are pretty damn smart!!!"


" I guess people will do anything for a dollar then..."

"I've got some coupons if you want to buy them..."


I guess not everyone will find that funny, but the sarcasm is just too much...not sure how coupons became the topic anyways...wow the things that can go around these days to talk about, and in my case, make fun of, or others help do it for me....
 

SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANOTHER *((*^&;(*%$%$#$%&^%%#@@$%#$$%%%!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! JUST GOT IN A YELLING MATCH WITH ME HERE ON BASE, AND I SERIOUSLY WANT TO JUST PUT MY FIST THROUGH LIKE SEVERAL BUILDINGS I AM SO BEYOND FUMING FURIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM WORKING TOWARDS A MASTERS DEGREE THEN A 2ND AND MAYBE EVEN A 3RD MASTERS SO I WON'T HAVE TO BE AROUND AND LIVE AROUND SUCH HORRID PEOPLE EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER NEVER EVER NEVER EVER EVER AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN@@@!!!!!!!!!!!! Did I happen to mention that I'm furious by the way!!!??????????????????????????????

I start my University next month...only like 6 more WEEKS to go....yes I got accepted to the University of Alaska Anchorage here, completely out of state and far enough away from Japan to make anyone cry it's so far...I'm dying to start my courses, I'm dying to get away from people here on base, I'm dying to meet NORMAL people for once in my life that don't just focus and talk about one lifestyle (this one) and this lifestyle only and nothing else or no one else exists in life but them and their meaningless everyday existence. 

We were on our way home, and saw 2 bear cubs on the side of the road. The first one that I saw looked like a big black dog, until I finally realized it was a bear. Then I saw the 2nd bear cub, and they were walking along the side of the street....they started running across when cars started stopping to see them, and I got out and tried to go and look better, and get some pics, but they had already crossed the street, and disappeared into the woods...I walked up a little more to see where they ran off to, but it was still a short distance, so just turned back and got back in the car, and we continued on our way home...

we barely turned the corner, and I saw the mother bear walking...A black bear about up to your shoulders, just walking where backyards are....I jumped out again to stand back and take a picture.... I have never lived in Alaska, I have never been around wildlife ever,  I have never been around snow up to your neckline, and ice as thick as the first layer of your mattress...I have never lived around where dog sledding and ice hockey are so big, that you can't go out in town without hearing a short conversation about it, or seeing advertisements about them...I've never lived around mountains, I've never been able to plant flowers, and actually have my own yard, front and back, and decorate the outside how I want, I've never lived around where we actually have a winter, that can actually be called "WINTER..." Cold has never felt so good, and it seems to drive certain people nuts when I say that I actually like it here when they hate it...wow no wonder we don't get along since we're complete opposites...this isn't the first time though....

 I have on the other hand, lived in desert temperatures 120, suffered from extreme heat exhaustion that was enough to send me to the emergency room every month....seen more cattle than I would have liked to, been around farm life too much sometimes, lived in a big city, that was Business and Industrial oriented more than people/Tourist friendly...been around bugs, rodents, snakes, red dirt, broken limbs, tornadoes, flooding, earthquakes, fires, dogs and cats, birds, fish, flat land, more hot weather, and just too much to mention...

I get out again to snap a pic of the mother bear...standing far enough back to just observe and see a bear for the first time ever without like 50 other people around making noises and won't be quiet....I just about had my phone on camera mode, until some other car comes up, rolls down the window, and starts yelling junk at me, and I yell back to not to be telling me what to do, did they really think that I was listening to them, to mind their own &;*#($*;$&;@$$@# business, and I have no idea what else flew out of my mouth...we are always fighting over something here, not a day goes by really without that happening...that's why I refuse to work with them ever again...I won't allow people to talk to me the way they do like I'm homeless or something...whoever this was, their voice was enough to make glass melt, and liquefy it all over again, that is how annoying it was to have to listen to...I don't listen to anyone besides God and the law...anyone else doesn't matter, and I am not going to stand there and be lectured by some stranger who doesn't even know who I am, and they just yell at me cause they don't have anything else better to do here but follow other people around and yell insults at them cause they are bored with them their own life...

I'm still boiling mad, and no matter what I say to anyone face to face, I am always the one who is wrong, so I'm done with such ignorant people. This was a first for me even after living here for an entire year....I finally got to see BLACK BEARS UP CLOSE here on the way home...first it was 2 cubs, about to your waist...walking along the side of the road...they just looked like a big black dog, until I realized they were actual bears...I've never seen bears that close before ever....I've never lived here in Alaska and around all this nature...I've never lived in cold climates...I've never lived around mountains, I've never lived around snow up to your neckline, and ice as thick as the first layer of your mattress....I've lived in extremely hot climates in desert





temperatures reaching 120 degrees, been around and seen cattle more than I've wanted to, been around red dirt, broken limbs, tornadoes, flooding, it was such heavy flooding, that coffins washed up from the ground, and were seen floating down the street, noisy cars, honking horns, stop lights, stop signs, (small towns don't have either) gas stations the size of a house, the newer ones are like this, bugs, rodents, snakes, landfills, weeds, flat boring land, busy streets, lived on a busy street, big city that was nothing but an Industrial/Business oriented place, NOT A TOURIST DESTINATION, not of any interest to anyone if they are coming over to America for the very first time in their life with a VISA, and still have to learn how to adapt to this place. I love it here, and am still learning about it here...that is why I'm working so hard so that I can stay here cause I don't want to go back like ever from where I came from....



So of course if I see any animal that I've never seen up-close before, it's extremely exciting to me,  I haven't been around them, I want to take as many pics as I can, I want to be able to talk about it to others that I can actually talk to, and just stand back and watch...not do anything to them cause I've never seen them...the cubs were very fast, and ran across the street when cars started stopping on the sides. I jumped out to try and get a pic, but they ran so fast across the street and then disappeared in the woods, I didn't get anything...From far away, they looked like 2 little black specs in front of you...I walked a little ways up since it was a running track that I was on, and someone else was out the same as me standing there watching where they went....I didn't want to deal with them, and it was still a short distance to walk where they ran into the woods, so I just turned around and got back in the car, and started back on the way home...barely got around the corner, and I saw the mother bear...a medium sized black one, about up to your shoulders walking towards the road...

I jumped out again cause I have never seen bears this close so it was a complete rush....I've only been around cats and enormous human sized dogs that about suffocated me or had a certain sniffing problem and didn't know how to leave anyone alone...and there was a bear right in the neighborhood just walking calmly...I got out to take a picture staying far back, and almost got it on picture mode, until some other car comes up, and we get in a yelling match right there...they were saying this and that how I shouldn't be doing that, and whatever, like I was listening and I was yelling don't be F*(&*(&^*&&Y*(^&*^^*&YI*&(&**)*#$$$!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!??@!?# telling me what to do, and who the H**@#((#( did they think they were lecturing me, and to mind their own #*$&*%&#*@# business...it was a voice enough to make glass break and liquefy it that's how annoying it was to listen to...I couldn't take whoever this was, and got back in the car again, and we went home finally, and I am so furious that they ruined such a beautiful experience that won't be repeated, and that probably won't ever happen again, cause we don't get very many nice days here with the sun being out....

There is plenty of wildlife out at Denali Park, but seeing bears right in neighborhoods right around the corner where you live is something that you just can't describe to anyone...I just stand back and take pics of them, watch them a little bit, and then they turn around and run back in the woods...by the time we were done yelling at each other, I turned to get my pic of the mother bear, and she was running back into the woods...no one has ANY idea how much I want to scream right now, and how loud, that it would make the entire country of Japan deaf....

this is what my newest sweatshirts have on the front...still sarcastic as I can be!!! Everything has been tooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sllllllloooooooooooooowwwwwwwwwww that it has been driving me absolute nuts....What a junk summer we have been having...it's freezing again...we have only 1 or 2 days of sunshine, and then it's cold and rainy again...It killed my flowers that I planted outside...12 packages of flower seeds that I spent half the day planting them so carefully, and nothing...oh, but I seemed to have dropped a few seeds while I was doing that, and there are like 3 small flowers growing in the cracks along the front porch...My cruise was amazing...I had never been on one, so I was in awe about everything...loved every little detail of the inside passage here in Alaska...my most favourite has to be the town of Ketchikan...another whaling town, and just very beautiful and quaint...I've been feeling completely NAUSIATED because my in-laws are coming in just a few weeks here, and are staying nearly a month...I think that it's time for me to beg to be put back on VALIUM so that I can keep my sanity since I don't and never will do the family thing like ever....sorry but can't help how I feel about that since I've always been the rebel and loud mouth who's not afraid to throw my opinion out there when everyone else just wants to sit silent...

so I'm trying to plan it now for me to stay just as busy as I can so I don't have to deal with that as much as everyone thinks that I will just sit and tolerate complete hell...just not for me!!! I have no idea how else to explain it!!! I'll finally get to enjoy the train ride here in Alaska, that goes all across the state, and I"ll finally get to visit Denali Park which I"ve heard sooo much about....and finally my university courses will start again next month...(hoping those will save me from the torture...gagging sound...) and I graduate next year...or should graduate.....if not, then in the spring 2015...can't wait can't wait can't wait...cause I made an absolute vow to myself in stone, concrete, asphalt, writing, emails, and verbally when I was going off like I always do about something, that I would NEVER EVER work with such brats again that just graduated high school 2 or 3 years before, or that very same year...

I have never in my entire life had so much trouble in a work environment...these little 18-19 year olds think that they could go around and tell ME what to do, whenever they still lived with their parents, and were always trying every single possible moment to get a boyfriend....that or which one of their "friends" got arrested and all the details on that...I would put my water bottle down someplace...one of them would grab it and throw it back at me cause they didn't like where I put it...WTF was that about...we would always blow up at each other, and would stay on opposite sides of the room until they would finally leave since I was in authority above them...they would tell me where to sit, when to move, and it just burned me up, I grabbed everything that I had, got up and got as far away as I could from them, and then threw it all done and it made a huge thump like when you throw down about 2-3 suitcases....I think it mostly turned into silent fighting than verbally, but wow, I totally just SNAPPED, and when I was back home for all of 2011, I grabbed everything up again what I needed, went down to the branch of OSU down the street from me, enrolled that same day to continue my courses, and started the next week...

I had just completely had it, and that has never happened before, and it really takes a lot to push me that far, but I just can't take working with such uncontrollable brats like that....my kids acted way better and way more mature than they did...so I am never, ever going through that again, and definitely not working on base again, but this next time in a private school where they wear uniforms and actually have manners, and people won't talk to me that way cause I won't put up with it since I even surprised myself when I snapped like I did....I can finally finish my University courses and graduate up here in Alaska...not very many others can say that!!! also, where people actually have MANNERS....I still can't believe how mean people can be to each other in this day and age.....not just to other people, but also to animals...I can't watch those animal shows that they have on tv...the ones where they rescue all these abused animals and the conditions people leave them in....it's just sickening....the kids that I am involved with here, I am trying hardest to make each of them individual gifts.....

I hear all my art supplies calling me, since I could barely get in my art room door before without stepping on the huge pile of just "stuff" (NOT JUNK!!!)....so now after about a year and 3-4 months...(I lost count long ago so I don't even care anymore since it's taking me so long....) I can finally actually open my door all the way and see well some of my floor...now it's only 1 box that is left, and 3 more piles to suffer through...I really can't stand doing things like that...organizing, closet cleaning whatever...it's much easier to get it and shove it all in a closet and shut the door...problem solved...that is why all my closets are like that, but I always know where every single last item is, and can go straight to it....I'm completely stuffed with every imaginable thing that you can think of, but just can't stand to waste time going through stuff and organizing after moving around sooo much....still can't stand the moving part, can't get enough of traveling, but the annoying, rude people never seem to end....I'm craving London next!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've pretty much had it with the attitudes over here and everything is turned around on me...not any stupid fights here since I've stayed away from the places that I've worked before, and don't need that ridiculous high school drama....I've heard it from others though, and sat through the whining and complaining and just couldn't help thinking how thankful I was that it wasn't me...I missed fireworks this year, we didn't have much of anything here...I think stuff off in other towns, but it was so chilly and rainy that day I wasn't much in the mood to put up with other people in bad weather....and now it's cold again...for the whole week it's going to do nothing but rain...we have only one more month of summer left, and then rain and cold temperatures for the next 9 months...

I'm really hurting for Seattle again....I haven't gotten to wear shorts in like 3 years, and pretty stappy shoes are just out of the question here...the things that I had to give up and miss too much now all to come here and live in Alaska, but it is all worth it to me....after being tortured severely in Japan (oh dear God help us all...) I am never going to be in 120 degree temps again....everyone else in the country is going through a severe heatwave, and I'm freezing and have my heat on, and am wearing sweatshirts everyday...and it's nearly the middle of July...only in Alaska, but I don't want to give it up...now I think I have to force myself to finally go to bed since it's 3am...also, I have no idea what I'm talking about this late/early in the morning..just whatever comes to mind that I want to rant on about here, but can't say anything publicly since everyone gets so offended anymore even if you cross the street wrong...5 months until Christmas and then this year is done with...I'm counting the days until I graduate.....sometimes I'm just too excited that I can't even sleep... 

Two Words: Shane Chase ( from my WestLife)

yes , Shane from WestLife DID contact me and I about passed out...I think if if I am in contact with the lead singer of a rock band, then I will have a much better chance of meeting them....YES I don't care what it takes or even if it halfway kills me, others can see that I go through whatever it takes all for a rock band...so totally worth it though...

WESTLIFE WESTLIFE AND WESTLIFE

I have been listening to every single one of my Westlife cds for the entire month..so many of them, that I completely burned out my cd player...I have all the singles from them, the older albums whenever they first came out, the middle ones they came out with, the later ones, concert ones, and still more that I want to get along with the Farewell tour...I've lost count, but my cd player completely died, and won't do anything now...so I guess that speaks for itself how music crazy I am over bands, and how I will live anywhere in the world just to follow a rock band....sorry people have no idea what they are missing out on...But if I had everything from my own Airplanes to my own Restaurants, then I wouldn't care either...I hope that we get to go to England next where they still live and breathe Westlife, and about knock people across the galaxy if they were to say anything negative about them...not that I wouldn't hesitate to do the same thing...

I Miss The Sydney Opera House!!!! :'(

I DID NOT Know This About Playing Cards!!!

 I could never ever enjoy myself at just playing "cards.." trying to get someone like me who travels all over the world to sit still just playing with cards and trying to get some so called "enjoyment" out of it...Sorry, just can't relate...I came across a couple of articles just now about playing cards...I have never in my life known this...It has never been talked about, brought up at any of my synogugues, churches, social gatherings, mentioned as any kind of an interest to talk about the meaning of these useless things, and I am still finding this extremely hard to believe cause I have never in my life heard any of this...Now that I know, I don't want to go near these things, and I have an excuse to reject anyone trying to suck me into one of their stupid boring card games when I don't care anyways...wow does it ever pay to stay educated about stuff like this....

 

 

Why Shouldn’t Christians Play Cards?

Did you know that the modern deck of playing cards was designed and developed by occultists and Satan worshipers. The early Puritans denounced card playing as an immoral act that Christians should have ...no part in. Why are so many Christians, today, fascinated with gambling and playing card games? The reason is that there is a very sinister and evil force behind the history of card playing that most Christians are unaware of. “Most card addicts do not know that each of these fifty-two cards has a secret meaning. There is a reason why good people have always looked upon cards with suspicion and uneasiness. They are tainted with dishonesty and indecency. Nicknames for a deck of cards include: “The Devil’s Bible” and ‘The Devil’s Picture Book.’ There was a time when the church took a strong stand against the card game. In the fifteenth century European clergy attacked the games as being immoral and unclean. In 1423 a German preacher called them the invention of the devil and his hearers made a huge bonfire of cards in the town square. In another city cartloads were destroyed. Until relatively recent times, fundamental preachers and churches warned about the dangers of cards. Although the deck of cards have lost neither their meaning nor their evil influence, there is a strange silence about them in most churches today.”

BIBLICAL PRINCIPLES
A Christian is strictly forbidden to participate in any games or past-times that are of the world and of the devil (1 Jn. 2:14-17). Since the deck of playing cards is of the devil a Christian cannot glorify God by playing these cards or even having them in their home (1 Cor. 6:20, 10:31). Playing cards in ones home, for hours at a time, day after day, can become an idolatrous activity that wastes precious time and stagnates spiritual growth (1 Cor. 10:6; Eph. 5:11, 15-17). It is an abomination to have a detestable deck of cards in ones home. Remove all the decks of cards in your home and burn them like the early-day saints did. Curses could come upon you and your household if you allow such an evil thing to remain in your home (Deut. 7:26, 30:17-20; Josh. 7:13; Acts 19:19)

Read more about PLAY CARDS: http://www.prayerrequest.com/blog/134/entry-449-is-card-playing-a-pastime-of-the-devil/

 

 

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Playing cards, like reading your horoscope, has become a joke or just a game. However, the Lord does not look at it as a joke or game. There are serious consequences for reading your horoscope as well as using cards or just having them in your home. It has been said that nicknames for a deck of cards is "The Devil's Bible" and "The Devil's Picture Book". At one time the church took a strong stand against the card game. Until recently preachers and churches warned about the dangers of cards. The first deck of cards was made in 1392 for the insane French King Charles.

Some of the most common places you will find a deck of cards (besides our homes) will be with prostitutes, gamblers, thieves, murderers, in taverns, brothels, prisons, insane asylums, gambling dens, etc., but never at a prayer meeting.

The king represents Satan, Prince of Darkness, usurper and foe of our Lord Jesus Christ. The ten card is for the Spirit of lawlessness, in opposition to the moral law in the Word of God. In 1300, clubs were the chief weapons used by murderers, therefore this suit represents the Spirit of Murder and death by violence. The jack represents the lustful libertine, from pimp to adulterer and whoremonger, a moral leper whose chief ambition is to gratify sensual fleshly lusts. The queen represents Mary, Mother of Jesus, but in the card language she is called Mother of Harlots. The joker represents Jesus Christ, the Son of God. Joker means fool and therefore Jesus is held up to ridicule. The joker is said to be the offspring of licentious jack and the queen, Mother of Harlots.

All other cards also have hidden obscene and blasphemous meanings. Nine-tenths of all gambling today is done with these cards. Witches, psychics, and satan worshiper use playing cards for divination and to cast spells and curses. Born-again believers should not want to be in contact with such a tool of satan. In Deuteronomy 7:26 we are told not to have abominable things in our homes. It will bring a curse on you and your household. It is time that Christians clean house and destroy the hidden works of darkness.

I John 2:15-17 "Do not love or cherish the world or the things that are in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in him. 16) For all that is in the world - the lust of the flesh [craving for sensual gratification] and the lust of the eyes [greedy longings of the mind] and the pride of life [assurance in one's own resources or in the stability of earthly things] - these do not come from the Father but are from the world [itself]. 17) And the world passes away and disappears, and with it the forbidden cravings (the passionate desires, the lust) of it; but he who does the will of God and carries out His purposes in his life abides (remains) forever."

Romans 12:1,2 "I appeal to you therefore, brethren, and beg of you in view of [all] the mercies of God, to make a decisive dedication of your bodies [presenting all your members and faculties] as a living sacrifice, holy (devoted, consecrated) and well pleasing to God, which is your reasonable (rational, intelligent) service and spiritual worship. 2) Do not be conformed to this world (this age), [fashioned after and adapted to its external, superficial customs], but be transformed (changed) by the [entire] renewal of your mind [by its new ideals and its new attitude], so that you may prove [for yourselves] what is the good and acceptable and perfect will of God, even the thing which is good and acceptable and perfect [in His sight for you]."

II Corinthians 6:17,18 "So, come out from among [unbelievers], and separate (sever) yourselves from them, says the Lord, and touch not [any] unclean thing; then I will receive you kindly and treat you with favor, [Isaiah 52:11] 18) And I will be a Father to you, and you shall be My sons and daughters, says the Lord Almighty. [Isaiah 43:6; Hosea 1:10]."

I Timothy 6:12 "Fight the good fight of faith; lay hold of the eternal life to which you were summoned and [for which] you confessed the good confession [of faith] before many witnesses."

Confess, repent and break all curses off of you and your bloodline and cast out the demons.

DEMONS TO CAST OUT IN THE NAME OF JESUS:

Prince of Darkness, lawlessness, murder, prostitution, harlotry, sexual perverseness, insanity, stealing (break the curse of the thief), fool, adultery, death by violence, moral leper, mockery, whoremonger, witchcraft, divination, mother of harlots, blasphemy, cursing, deception, delusion, etc.

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My Birthday!!!

story of my life living around people who bore me to death and live to argue a make my life miserable...soooo glad to get out in town where people are normal....
breaking outta here and taking off to Seattle, Washington next week...these people here are driving me absolutuly outta my mind...but somehow it's all my fault...well that's why i always go and take
off  to travel to another big city always seems to solve everything...just can't wait..i just hope that my moodiness will leave me for at least a week...I am thinking it will go in that direction once I get far far away from certain people...yes they have a problem with me here, (as usual, and same as it was with every other place I've lived...) and I have a problem with them having a problem with me....so counting down the days until gorgeous Seattle...nice birthday idea though...bye bye boring souls!!!!

UAA ACCEPTED!!!

I got 2 letters from University Of Alaska/Anchorage finally letting me know that they accepted me...after 2 past colleges, I can finally continue up here in Alaska....so now I can finally graduate end of next year before continuing on....If anyone hasn't been though it, starting completely over on a career field is a complete pain, and beyond annoying...but sorry, travel and tourism wasn't cutting it for me, and after 9/11...I just said "forget it" after the panic attacks kinda sorta went away from all that, and got away from it altogether....so everything that I had before was nothing but travel and every country in the world...nothing to do with education, but since I've been flying through without any problems, I don't mind it at all...I just completely SNAPPED after being around such unbelievably beyond ignorant people back in Japan...I made a vow to myself set in stone, that no matter what it took, and even if it took me the rest of the time living overseas, that I was NEVER going to work with people who acted that way ever again...let's see!!! what did they jump down my  throat just because I didn't have the same exact opinion as them!!!

1. I hated sushi..still do....always will..I got lectured about that about how "good" it was...still have no idea wth that was about...they couldn't understand no matter how much I told everyone that I really and truly and honestly didn't like anything...They throw meat in with everything, wouldn't even look at that, and they couldn't understand that, and I had no idea how anyone could ruin vegetables, when I say I want them completely and totally plain, and how they can trash a $40.00 lobster mixing mayonnaise in it, and somehow I ended up with 2 of those nasty things, and couldn't touch either one of them...The smell alone was enough to kill me...I'm guessing it was another misunderstanding againnnnnn....so never again will I go through that, even if others enjoy that sort of thing, they can also put up with the guy at the end of the table yelling around arguing about the price of mustard going up...such sad sad souls...I'm thinking Valium for the entire country perhaps...(yes I still am the inventor of sarcasm as the defense mechanism as usual, and when I really have no idea what else to say...and that"s what puts me at the top of all my classes..I guess it pays to always have some snippy off the wall answer...those who haven't heard one, obviously haven't met or come across me yet...

2. I hated being there...I got told to like it anyways, and to just make the best out of any place that I was at...yah, I secretly bitch slapped that one a trillion thousand million times +++++ in my head and that was about when I took off to Australia for a month, and left everyone else there wondering what to do with themselves on an island out in the middle of nowhere...

3.Nothing was in English...yes I know I was in Japan, ok, so what... the response that I got????? "Suzy, you should go and LEARN JAPANESE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I think the glare that I gave them fried their brain in half cause they never spoke to me again...and the same went for me...not that I cared of course...

4. Nothing happening like ever besides protests, yelling from vans from loud speakers, arguing, yelling at me when I didn't understand something..like I was really going to understand them any better with them yelling at me in Japanese...I threw out all kinds of phrases in 3-4 different phrases, in German, French, & Italian, all mixed together, so I still came out on top, I don't care what they were saying to or about me...

5. I don't do heat and 1000 degree temperatures...So every new month that rolled around, I found myself in the emergency room being treated for heat exhaustion...I have never lived through such heat...It takes 5 generations  to get used to heat that is in Japan...I had no idea it was so hot over there, but still I was lectured and told that there are beaches, and you can go to the beach any time, and you never have any bad weather...shows what they know...

6. Earthquakes...I went through 4-5 over there, and I had never been through an earthquake in my entire life...2 happened in the middle of the night, our bed just started shaking like crazy and I had no idea what was going on, another time I was just walking across the room, and everything started shaking, and things fell off of my walls...then I just felt slight shaking when I was sitting still....also typhoons like crazy and tsunamis that never end...doesn't sound so much like a beach paradise to me....

7. Oh and how could I forget? MUSIC...what I have on before my feet even hit the floor out of bed in the mornings, and I keep radios on all throughout the house on stations that I can actually stand...We got only ONE radio station there that was in English...the rest were all in Japanese, the street performers on the corner where the shopping areas were, the concerts that were going on during the weekends, were all in Japanese...I was always the loudmouth in the crowd yelling out to play something in English, play something country, can't understand you all, play something that is actually enjoyable...It was so crowded, and shoulder to shoulder, no one had any idea where that came from, or who was saying it...me of course, but I wasn't gonna get up in front of all them and admit that..I'd much rather be the anonymous screamer than let anyone else know that it was me saying all that...funny how I had some other Americans laughing though since they were about the only ones who could understand me...wow how I'm loving that "I Heart Radio" feature that came out not too far back....

8. It seemed like everyone there was nothing but an attitude basher or a trouble maker,... I guess that explains why I still get so moody and won't give up the sarcasm no matter what...It seems that the only ones that I could actually stand were my students, and some of them felt the exact same way, since I am still in touch with a few of them...so good to know that I wasn't the only one who was going outta my mind being stuck in one place...

9. No matter what I liked or what I was interested in, somehow it was always "wrong..." someone always had something negative to say, just to hear themselves talk, and to try and get everyone else to laugh with them...Another reason, why I made a pact with heaven that I will never work with people like that again....

10. Sorry, but that is NOT a beautiful island...There are like 10 landfills, and every single one of them are full...beaches have endless trash thrown all over floating in the water, and jagged rocks aren't inviting along with habu snakes and all other kinds of creatures that I have never heard of...My cats caught one of the lizards that they found, and knew that I'm scared of everything, and killed the thing, and I found it one night in my bed when I pulled the blankets back...I had no idea how long I had been sleeping with that nasty thing in my bed...dried up of course, but I couldn't decide if I was more grossed out, or that it was dead funny and trying to stop halfway choking from laughing so hard for my cats trying to protect me like that...all those beaches do not have sand...they have jagged, broken up pieces of coral that will slice right through your foot if you are going barefoot like I am every minute of the day except when out in public...I seriously can't believe that I had someone else argue with me about that either...not every beach in the entire world has sand...fine a great percentage of them do...great...but I've been to the French Riveria in Nice, France, and that beach is nothing but small black stones....very small of course, but just goes to show you how ignorant some people can be just to try and think that they are right in front of everyone else...

I really have no idea how I got off on all that...just an excuse to talk again I guess...not quite losing my voice again, but I can kinda sorta feel it going....so going to the Anchorage mall this weekend to grab more than a few more things of Alaska...I never wanna leave here, I don't care if it stays cold with snow 6-8 months out of the year...I finally have my life back...no small towns, no weird living styles, no more yelling matches, and not so much of me being so sulky and moody every second that I am awake...now that I can finally think straight, I won't have to secretly slap as many people in my head, but that doesn't mean that I'm going to stop...it never ends when you come in contact with me...good night/day everyone...all my bingo team mates, you all are the greatest ever!!!!!!!!!!!!! so congrats to me....I made it into the University of Alaska!! first time ever going to an out of state school...

My Current Mood....

I finally finished putting up my letters....that is VERY exhausting and even made me scream a few times it was driving me crazy...those foam letters underneath are from the kids art department in my art store I go to here...so if something is from the kids section of anything then it's going to be made for kids...just 2 little peel off stickers on the back...so I got the priveledge of digging holes in the back of each letter with very sharp and very stubborn nails that slipped and stabbed me in the finger.. so of course I was bleeding all over cause I can't do anything with a hammer and nails to save my life...I got them too close to where the end wouldn't fit, then messed up and got the nail where it wasn't even with the holes that I dug out the back...some kept falling down or falling off completely...too far apart, too low, too high...so then after like 2 hours I finally got it...so only 15 more letters to go cause I want to hang up one one my screen names... since I use this solely as my art room and nothing else, then decorating it up couldn't be more than a blast...I can finally see my floor after an entire year...I had nothing but unfinished art projects all over the floor I was walking on it and stepping on it all when I would go in there...I would start something, get bored with it, then start something else I saw or wanted to try...so now all that is in 2-3 trash bags and I made a vow to myself that I won't start or work on anything else but that stuff until it is all finished and sent off, cause none of that stuff is for me....it's all for my friends or nieces...I'm enjoying it all now cause I won't even get to look at it when I start the university here...and I just want it out of my house.. it's all art stuff, so nothing else anyone would care about...I know it's spring everywhere else, but we still have snow and the air is cold, but nothing else...my gorgeous snow will all be melted by my birthday end of this month, but I'm thrilled that I get to enjoy it this long...then just 3 months and snow will come again...best life ever living in such freezing cold weather that feels sensational to me....and I'm only a few hours away from the North Pole... I found out if you go there for a visit, you have to wear an oxygen tank since it's so high up and there is very little air...I still want to go sometime that I am here, after being forced to live in climates that were hotter than hell..I'm not so sure if a camera would work up there, but that still doesn't scare me off...I've just totally snapped after growing up so strict, being told "no" all the time, and never getting to do anything on my weekends hardly except synagogue and regular church and helping with the stupid yard work...those were my weekends, and then it was school again... not much of a weekend for a kid...so my relationship with rules is fabulous because we no longer have a relationship...going against everyone else and being a total rebel is so much more fun than being such a goody two shoes all the time...I hate people anyways so I'm not loosing any sleep worrying about all the drama...with over 7 billion people in the world, no need to freak out over just a few of them...the best part of it is you will never see them again...just can't top that feeling...kind of like the excitement you feel around Christmas only this one lasts every second...wouldn't give it up for anything...as long as it's not illegal, throw all the rules out the window instead of following everyone else in the crowd...I always have, and that is why I found Hyde park over in Sydney by going off on my own instead of with the 20 other people who hated me anyways....when I find m creek again here in Alaska over the bridge you have to walk over, I'm jumping in... Can't wait!!!!!!!

 

 

so I really can't help it, but I somehow find myself hating people right now besides my friends of course....I've noooo idea why I'm still so irritated, I'm just not used to being around a roomful of stupid individuals, practially attacking me asking me how I'm doing and such, when I don't wanna talk, don't feel like talking, and just wanna pout and find the easiest way to get away from whatever the situation is...guess I'm just not an "everybody" kind of person...I'm guessing about a week until I finally cool off..only a few more weeks until I'm around "normal" people who I can talk about "normal" things with and it's just not a one sided conversation about what I'm living around...facing everyday...those I chat with know exactly what I'm referring to, and having to hear that all the time is just plain boring, and people who just sit and talk about themselves all the time put me to sleep in a second....so never again on the public embarrassment for me...I seriously have no idea what people's problem is doing that to others...mostly me of course...my best solution is sarcasim of course, and doing an about face and heading clear the other way...wow this wasn't a problem at all when I was growing up...what too much tv and ignorant cartoons and sitcoms can do to people over time...

    Now that I can see again on this again, maybe I can work again finally on this...It's really hard to believe that it's already April, and I"ve hardly done a single thing on here...Life goes on, and it's very sad to say that the ugly colors follow along as well...my sight is still trying to adjust...So let's see, January, nothing, finished dreaded nutrition class,  (and I never want to hear another thing about nutrition classes ever ever again) too many died... February, still nothing heavy snow storms, sorry attitudes, March, winter hit all at once, snowing on and off, still not enough snow though, went out bare-footed and in tank tops and shorts in the snow storms cause it just felt so darn good after being in 120+ degree heat my whole life in different places but all scaulding hot hot hot climates...I climbed on top of a snow heap that the snow plows up here piled up from all the snow that had collected, and laid down in it and covered myself with solid snow where all you could see was my head alone...never felt so good, so freezing cold, and finally not sweating...hmm what else, my university everything, tried to go intertubing a few days ago, but it was soooo dry, you would stop in the middle of the hill and had to push yourself down....We went only 2 times then called it quits...now it's a 6 month wait until the heavy snow comes again...so I'll be waiting for the sun to go away again...Let's see,  Passover & Easter Holiday weekend...my most favourite holiday of the entire year besides Hanukkah and Christmas...and wouldn't you know it, some sorry soul had to come along and ruin it for me of course...I really really reallllllyyyyy miss my synogugue and my Lifechurch back home...going in person...I wish that I could bring them here, or they would extend to up here...I can at least get them online but still not the same...so I have to settle for what I get forced at me here with who I'm surrounded by every minute of my life now...they ruined my Easter, I felt like I had gone back in time about 50-60 years, it felt more like a funeral than an actual happy celebration...yes I will spare the details cause somehow it's always my fault on whatever happens...yes...I love the place (Alaska) just not the people I'm stuck with...native Alaskans rock, everyone else...forget it...small gathering after Easter services, too many people crowded all together, and I have no idea what is the deal with people I don't even know coming up behind me, but as I was getting VERY HOT WATER for hot chocolate, someone comes up behind me and plows into me full force, knocks me forward, and knocks the breath outta me...and after that I was done...done with everyone there, done with everything, done done done, just done...that is why I go out in Anchorage to find my activities, I just can't take these people I have to live around...I'm still feeling that and it's been almost a full 24 hours...yes I have an extreme low tolerance for people and their constant b.s. after being in Japan for 4 years...the nightmares have finally stopped after 6 years, but the irritation and hostily attitude and smart mouth of mine are here to stay it looks like...I'm thinking a few weeks on my Alaskan Cruise all over Alaska, and up to Canada, for a few weeks, and then on the train again all over Alaska in another month will cheer me up in no time since I will get to travel again, and not just be stuck in one place...which drives me out of my mind if anyone couldn't tell...yes that is what an island will do to you...I don't even live on one anymore, and I still can't sit still...then my university starts up again, and I graduate in another year...this first part of the year just takes forever to get over with...now let the fun begin cause this slow stuff just isn't cutting it...

this was one of my runway songs when I was in modeling...beautiful song and gorgeous lyrics...yes and I'm changing the layout of this thing tomorrow cause I'm about to go blind...I had no idea that pink could look so disgusting and just down right ugly when slapped together like this...I would so like to know who actually thinks that is attractive...maybe if you are into abstract art perhaps?? I will pick back up on this when I get my university things up here in Alaska sorted out and things aren't so upside down crazy changing universities from 2 different places...dying for my Art classes to start again, sometimes I can hardly sleep at night I can't wait...I finally graduate next year class of 2014 and then will keep going on for the next 4-6 years cause I am NEVER working with such dead beats like I did over in Japan always causing so much drama and trouble (mostly with me of course) and then somehow everything is my fault...I'm getting so far ahead of them and so high up that they won't be able to see me...I plan to get at least 3 maybe 4 degrees including 2 masters cause I have just completely HAD IT with people who won't give up with acting just plain stupid...yes I've totally snapped, and everyone around me says I've changed so much, and I'm completely different, but that is what living on a rotten island for 4 years of your life will do to someone...and the very reason why I took off to Australia for a solid month to get away from that place...then I came back, and everyone hated me for going there...I really can't help wondering what it would be like to be around normal people for once with decent attitudes and who don't go around acting like they are going to prison in the next half hour and it is entirely your fault...not sure where that comes from, but the ones out in Anchorage are just fine, and are actually nice, and yes they talk to you and don't act like you are going to kill them if you talk to them first...No more language barriers finally...such an incredible feeling...no one else has any idea what I'm talking about unless they have been to other countries and have run into that...try getting completely lost in a town where no one speaks English, and all the signs, directions, maps, streets, businesses, etc. are all in a language that will make you go cross-eyed...that has happened to me about 4-5 times and I never want to go through that again ever...so few more months then nothing but studies for me again and flying through them so I can finally graduate up here in Alaska and leave everyone else with soured attitudes in the dirt...looks like a lot of people are going to be eating a lot of dust while they stand there with their mouths open while I'm graduating...Yes I've completely snapped, but making a memory of it...so thrilled to pieces that it's up here in Alaska...

I've put toooo much work into this thing to just drop it all of a sudden, so I'll just hold my breath and continue it I suppose....(yyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyaaaaaaaaaaaaawwwwwwwwwwwwwwnnnnnnnnnnn)

:O too bored going back to facebook now...

I'm really bored outta my mind with this thing...but I will still keep it going...
 

 not sure why this isn't working again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! we are hardly into the new year and I am already fighting with this thing again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! highly irritated right now...I guess I wouldn't be if I would stay offline for half a second since I'm on here all the time now even waking up in my sleep to respond...I'm not sure why this keeps doing this to me!!!!!!!!

A FEW OF MY FAVOURITE PAINTINGS!!

(not that anyone else cares really, but oh well... :p )