Time here is moving right along very very nicely. I have vowed not to do anything until my trip so I don't have some major catastrophe and I knock myself out of another trip altogether. Tonight I had my meeting for Australia. Only one more week to go for me of being at this place. I'm not saying a single word to anyone here, until I get back from everything, and I have the bragging rights to talk it up how great it is there and not here as much as I want. There really is nothing here honestly. I don't know why I am always the one who gets the attitudes thrown at me whenever I just mention the facts. I'm not an island person, just to be shoved in one small area and expected to stay there and be happy. I was sooooo excited I could hardly sit still, and I couldn't even get to sleep whenever I did finally get home as late as I did. What I've only seen in books or read about I finally finally finally get to see face to face after all this time. I'm not sure if I can take along my laptop with me since its such a major trip and it will be a challenge keeping up with everything else as it is, but I definately want to try so I can keep in touch. I will just be gone from here a week, but still want to document my time there day by day, and keep in touch with everyone and tell how Australia is...They are in fall season now and about to go into winter, so it's off tourist season now. We are having spring break that time, so everything is really really slow, and everyone wants to either go to ski resorts, or to beaches. I can go to those places anytime, and have been to both. I kind of decided this on a whim and couldn't really decide if I wanted to go or not. Then the closer it got, I just did it, cause I couldn't stand to be here anylonger. Maybe now people will start taking me seriously when I say I don't care a thing for this place, I'm not interested in it, I don't care what goes on here, I'm not one to just stay in one place, I absolutely have to travel or don't even think of talking to me cause I don't like myself when I'm not traveling. All kinds of misery seems to set in, and I have absolutely nooo idea where it comes from. So just another week here, not even a full one, and I take the overnight flight to Sydney for a full 7 days......That sure beats going anywhere here or in the states anyday...just wish I would meet my match on this one too, no one ever seems to want to do anything like ever.... I guess that's the what it's like to be totally boring... I wouldn't know how that is of course.....talk with you all soon I am not on here much, or it's a very short time these days...

Hi all, I'm not up to saying much today really, cause I had dental work done earlier, and am still suffering from the shots that they gave me over and over and over in the same spot. I wouldn't be going through this now if I hadn't ever been climbing in my bedroom when I was like 13 or 14, trying to rearrange my posters, and my whole desk toppled over with me on top of it...owwww let's see, I busted up 2 teeth in half, had to have a root canal, 2 crowns, 6 stiches in my chin, and a few in my leg if I'm remembering right. I'm past the point of hanging up posters anywhere, but I'm still having to deal with what I got myself into whenever I was younger. That was the worst I ever done, so that's why I"m soooo careful these days, and I don't even blink as to what is going on around me here or anywhere else around here. I am okay now, but never again will I go and do something like that. I think I will just stick to slapping music videos on everything, and if I do happen to come across any music icon posters, I'll keep them at eye level where I don't have to struggle to get them up... We have to move before we even leave here, so what a pain that is going to be having to take everything down from here and possibly put it back up, just to take it down again 3 months later to move from here for good. Be careful what you wish for I guess...I've said how much I couldn't wait to leave here since I got here...Never a dull moment, I'm actually looking forward to seeing what the next place here will be like to live in before we have to move off of this island once and for all. guess I will take off now since I'm still having after effects of that stuff they gave me...I say never again, but it seems like all that just happened over again...talk with u all soon...xxxx

This was my last full weekend of being on my own. But hey, I made it. This time 3 weeks instead of just 2, so it was longer, but I still got through it. I think it was a lot easier than last time a few months ago. I knew some things to cut out, so they wouldn't I wouldn't get stuck dealing with them, or me trying to figure out what to do altogether about it. Don't ask me ever to make a decision when I'm alone, I will do anything or say anything just so I"m not bothered with it whatever it is. Well, last night before I smothered myself in watching the Top 20 countdown until 2am,(yes, I am just that crazy to stay up half the night to watch music videos) I happened to catch something I guess what everyone else would call "educational." I'm not into the political side of life, never have been, and probably never will be. All it ever gets outta me is a huge eye roll and a sigh and then a hidden gag face on the side to my friends when no one else is looking... Hmmm what was it..If I am remembering correctly, it was something about bringing Israelis and Palistinians together and teaching them about each others cultures, and exchanging languages with one another. Also getting involved in school studies how each country is different and to promote friendships with one another, and to teach that fighting isn't everything, just because there is war going on around them. I would love to be involved in something like that just to get the experience of being around others from another country and seeing what it's like. I get pretty bored being in the same lifestyle year after year and would like to change it up a bit instead of always being around the same boring people who seem to be in training to be in charge of their own funeral parlor someday. That's how much of a yawn they are to me, so that's another eye roll and gag. I've gotten to be quite good at that since I was about a teenager I think. I thought it was a good message to try and get across, and how thrilling it would be to be around others who would actually have an open mind about other people and their country. I know this would never work, but ummm maybe they should try that technique out on Texans?!?!? xoxoxo talk with u all soon.

I"m tooooo obsessed with music I never ever stop....I feel like I am the only one who does this cause everything else I look at on here is nothing with music videos on it. I am into this sort of thing before I even get out of bed in the mornings I have the music going on something....maybe someday I will meet my match?!??!?!?!? hope u all are having a good weekend lol talk with you all soon.... xoxoxo

I came home today and this song was on the music channel on tv. I leave my tv on when I'm alone and gone all day on the radio station here...The 2nd one I just like the words to it and the tune of course...xoxoxxoxoxo Oh how I love doing whatever I want to again...♥♥♥♥♥☺☺☺☺☺☺♥♥♥♥♥♥

This was taken at the zoo in Florida to catch the flight to move to Italy...It was just a day for something to do but nothing spectacular except for the huge cats...

This is me by a Burger King in Hawaii in 2003, right before I moved to Italy. Hawaii was my last "big" trip in the states before having to leave there for good...Still it is very different from the rest of the US. I still had fun though and loved it...




This one is a view from the helicopter ride that I went on with a few others. It made me deathly ill, cause I wasn't used to all the jerking, but it was a once in a lifetime experience as you can see from the views... I didn't get too many cause I got to feeling extremely nausious about 10 minutes into it... I get sick over everything so I'm lucky I went when I did since I know what it does to me now....

Here's to another week of looking at this ugly looking thing at the top of my webpage...Dear God, I just hope I don't get bone marrow disease from somone so hideous looking, please protect me from someone so rotten and untalented who just stands there taking up space on my webpage and won't get lost....ugh what a thorn in my side this tramp is... please go away uggghhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!




I miss being in Italy too much!!! This is a view from my balcony there facing across the street and the mountains are in the distance... It was always foggy mostly, so they were hard to see sometimes, but it was a nicer view than the one that I have now....=p

hi everyone, Happy Sunday to you... I hope yours has been a bit better than mine...Sorry I won't be on tonight, I had a major catastrophe just happen not too long ago...It makes me sick to even think about it...I spend the whole day cleaning and organizing since it is springtime again, and the spring cleaning thing kicked in for me...I did that all day longgggggggg, I finally managed to corner my cats and grab them up to give them a bath.. They had developed dandruff from it being hot in the winter months and I was not standing for that...I got through that okay, they didn't like it, but they are used to it by now, and don't even try to fight with me anymore, since they know I am always the one who will win....I let them go after I was done, and one of them wants to get me back and gets right in the middle of my bed all over clean laundry that I still had to put away, and then gets on the side that I sleep on alll wet....I am having to do everything over now on my bed, and the laundry that I already had done and just had to put away.....I don't want to sleep in a wet spot that smells like wet cat shampoo...I will be lucky if I can get to bed around midnight, but ugggghhhh how annoying is that?!?!?! Looks like it's pizza night again for me, the things I go through here that doesn't happen to anyone else...

I am still on my own another 2 weeks. I'm trying to come up with possibly anything to keep my mind off things and keep busy....I booked my trip for next month finally finally, so I'm holding my breath and keeping my fingers crossed ever so tightly that nothing goes wrong between now and then... Like another earthquake or typhoon, or something else crazy...I saw a sign last weekend they do piercing here every first and third weekend of every month. So guess what I went and did, so that wouldn't stop keeping me awake anymore at night worrying about something so meaningless to everyone else, but to me I actually lost sleep over it cause I'm too obsessed with that kind of thing...Enough where I was willing to sit in a long line for nearly 2 hours waiting, having to listen to others around me exchange lamebrain nothing same ole stories about the same junk things that go on around here...no one cares honestly..I surely don't...But I finally got what I was after, and was satisfied then so, maybe not anymore until I get back to the states....I'm not wasting my time anymore like that just sitting in a line when I have better things to do....But I get stuck on something and absolutely will not give it up until I get it...hmm I went and got my movie finally finally finallllyyyyyy what I have been waiting for since last year to come out since I finished the book to it...Nice escape from reality... esp the kind of reality that I"m stuck in over here....It shoudn't be too much longer...it's just annoying with everything dragging out, and I came home here yesterday to a couple of papers stuck to my door saying they are going to relocate us in the next few months somewhere else here...Something

about renovating and this and that...I have no idea what else, but that is kind of annoying, after being here for almost 4 years, and I've begged to move before because these people around me and their stupid human sized dogs, and them not keeping them away from me, or letting them take huge dumps in my front yard, even after we or my husband went over there to tell them to stop, they still were doing it.... I was begginggggg to leave here last year and the year before and the year before that to someplace else... Everything has been breaking down, and going wrong little by little, and I guess they finally had enough, cause obviously, it's not just us where little things are going wrong....I pretty much gave up the idea of moving anywhere until it was time for us to move for good...They want us to move 3 months before we leave then move again at the end of the year..I don't know how that is going to fly, but anything for a change, and to get away from these crazy people and their oversized 100+ pound dogs being forced around me... I don't want dogs around me, I don't why the hell they or anyone else can't understand that...I'm thinking they went and said a few things about me too, but there's nothing to complain about, cause I don't do anything, or have huge dogs that drive everyone else around me completely nuts....I don't care I won't ever see these psycho-path people ever ever again...So I have no idea how that is going to work out...Whatever happens, happens, and nothing I can do about it either way....I'm here just like everybody else is...Today is the first day of SPRING. Parts of the USA are getting snow. Back home we have it again there I heard, for like the 8th or 9th time this year since before Christmas. That is the most snow we have ever gotten ever ever ever...That is soo unfair I can't even stand to think about it....I found a solution to the trash problem here for me..Since I don't want to mess with, refuse to mess with it, or waste my time on it, and anything else that can come to anyone's mind that doesn't come to mine right now, I thought of something finally... I just take it to my work little by little and let them deal with it.. They can take it out and have it bust all over them. I wish I had thought of it sooner, but wow no more worrying about it on my part...I love how I think of these things, and no one else can figure it out and they do nothing but complain and whine about it...I don't do trash just like I don't do anything else that's gross or gets all over me....Still nothing is happening here, not that I"m paying attention or anything, but nothing worth getting excited about...Enjoy the rest of your weekend everyone and the first day of spring.. hope it is better for everyone else than it is for some getting snow again... tc...xxxx☺

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אלוהים היקר, בבקשה אף פעם לא נתן לזה לקרות לי !!!!!!!


mon Dieu, s'il vous plaît ne vous laissez jamais cela m'arrive à moi !!!!!!!




I just am wondering how long I can keep carrying on with this???!?!

אלוהים היקר, בבקשה להגן עלי מפני צורת החיים הזאת רקובה שורץ מחלות בכינים כי אניאף פעם לא יכול לקבל את זה השיער שלי די אדום ... ו אמן dear God, please protect me from this rotten life form infested with disease and head lice that I may not ever get it my pretty red hair...thank u and Amen... ahem another day of this I guess...well I can definately have my fun with it.. I've been doing this sort of thing since I was in school, and before I even ever hit the double digets, so I'm a pro at it now...hmmm too funny, and I need something for entertainment over here anyways...I watched my awesome movie part of last night, and finished it today...Legends of the Fall....I love the theme song to that, I can't get enough of it....I really miss them making movies like this, now it's nothing that really has any kind of a point to it...I am officially alone for 3 solid weeks here...It's dragging and sometimes I don't know what to do with myself...that is when I start doing things like this...just give me someone's picture and I will think up all kinds of things I don't want to catch from them... tomorrow, skin diseases... good night everyone....take care....xoxoxoxoxo I watched another movie tonight, and was actually able to finish it this time... "Immortal Beloveth" which is the life story of Beethoven....I can't wait to go and visit his birth house and grave site like I did with Mozart's....Wow it seems like that was 10 years ago or something....gorgeous song though that jumped out at me, I'm glad I found it on here, now maybe finally I can get to bed after messing around on here all day long....

אלוהים היקר, בבקשה להגן עלי מפני המעדר הזה רקוב כי אני לא יכול להיות מכוער נוראכמו שהיא, עם סכנת חיים מחלות .... אמן XOXOXO


Lieber Gott, bitte schütze mich von diesem faulen Hacke, damit ich nicht als hässlich und schrecklich, wie sie mit lebensbedrohlichen Krankheiten strickened ist .... AMEN xoxoxo werden

Bože, prosím, chrání mě z tohoto zkaženého motyka, že jsem se nesmí stát, jak ošklivé a hrozné, jak to je, strickened s život ohrožujícími chorobami .... AMEN xoxoxo


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dear God, please protect me from this rotten hoe that I may not become as ugly and horrible as she is, strickened with life threatening diseases....AMEN xoxoxo

Guess what I went and did today??!?!?! Do I feel any better about this rotten, chaotic week??? No, not really, but nothing I can do about it...Just being here seems to do that over and over repeatedly, and I don't even want to think about that anymore than I just have to...It's happened the whole time I've been over here, making me sick for about 1-2 months at a time...Yes I take movie and music stars more seriously than the political world...I know that's a shock to most, but it doesn't look like that's changing anytime soon, and I've been this way my whole entire life so far....Just few more weeks and I can get off this island, and then no more Asian countries for me ever again ever ever ever... I don't care what anyone says to me. They can go there and stay if they think it's so great...and since I'm not a drug addict like so many here already are, I have nothing to do with this place..Yes the truth comes out finally u know, yes it does go on here I find my own things to do, and I am just fine.... Once I get over my mad spells here, I think I will be able to talk again on here and for longer periods of time...now I'm just come to a standstill cause really nothing is going on here now...Oh, and once this dog ugly hoe gets the hell off my webpage all will be right with me and the rest of the world again....sorry but that's not a model!!! since when do I have anything to do with females in the first place??!@?!?!?! few more weeks then I can forget all this!!!! guess i just won't look at the top uggh what an eyesore....=p

I heard this song earlier today, and couldn't believe it...wow..I couldn't wait to look it up on here, but what a weird video... I've never seen such a strange video like this one in my life...but awesome music though...I guess this is what they played in the clubs back then....sometimes I wish life had a rewind button to things like that whenever I was too young to actually enjoy or go to any of that stuff, but was still obsessed with it like I am now...

http://movies.yahoo.com/photos/collections/gallery/2441/corey-haim-obit-%20gallery/fp#photo0 Corey Haim died earlier this morning of an apparent drug overdose. For a period during the late '80s, Haim's posters graced the walls of just about every 13-year-old girl's bedroom in America. He starred in a handful of movies that have become cultural touchstones for legions of Gen-Xers. And he was one half of, along with Corey Feldmen, "The Two Coreys." Then his personal demons and drug addiction turned him into a poster child of the perils of Tinseltown fame. Take a look back of some of his most memorable roles....(I'm sorry I really can't be on here right now, I can hardly stand to watch any of this either, just enough to save it to put it on here to have....I don't like finding out a day later one of my teen idols died while i was sleeping peacefully....tooooooo hurtful and totally unfair...his webpage was gorgeous by the way...I had no idea he was into the Van Gogh paintings... it turned out so pretty...at least it's still there to keep looking back on....

http://www.myspace.com/coreyianhaim http://www.myspace.com/coreyianhaim This is soo unfair and I JUST found out about it, cause we are a day ahead over here...It had to have happened in the middle of the night here for us and I'm so mad about it I can hardly comment on it...Another one of my favorite movie stars from the 80's gone for good...I feel like I'm around all toddlers or something here, cause no one knows anything here, nothing...they weren't even alive in the 80's, so of course they have no idea what I't talking about, who I'm talking about, or what they missed out on....ugghhhh this makes me so sick I haven't even read all the details....all my movie and music stars are going away or dying off and the whole time I am over hereeeeeeeeeeeee.....this was like my most favorite movie on earth when I was growing up whenever it came out...wow I haven't seen it forever...ordering off of here never seemed like such a good idea before as it does now, cause we defiately DON'T have it here...no one even knows what this is or has heard of it....=p