hi everyone...I just stopped by the cyber cafe here for a bit to post a quick message to u all...errrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr this is tooooooooooooooooooo frustrating....my internet is out for the 2nd time this week at home, so I have no way to connect right now until I get it fixed hopefully tomorrow sometime....I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend and having a good time whatever you are doing on your time off.....I was until my blasted connection just quit on me earlier this afternoon.....I miss you all and I hope to have it back by tomorrow whenever I get off work so we can carry on with our wonderful chat sessions!!!! take care everyone....miss you all like mad I haven't forgotten about you!!!!xxoxoxoxoxo

Monday 18th May 2009

yahoooooooo I got my internet back here at home finalllyyyyy!!!! I hope that is the last of my problems because that happened twice in a week, and it was very annoying and extremely irritating....Anyways....I hope that everyone had a a great weekend....mine went too fast as usual.....I got a chance finally to work on some of the entries on here from last month...I'm still building on it though, it takes awhile to get through them, cause I worked really long hours all last month, and hardly had any kind of an evening at all.....but I'm slowly getting caught up, and having it all come together...=) Not too much else happened here....I skipped out on the beach party thing after all...I just get to where I just plain don't care...I got questioned about it today of course and why I wasn't there, or if they missed me or whatever else like that....I just honestly said that I didn't go....not after what I went through last week, that was exhausting enough....and there will be more, so it's not like I"m worried about it or anything.....Sorry again about the date on here....it never will stop and it's always wrong on here unless I do it at night after I come home from my work, or really really late, and I"m usually too tired then to get on here to think about what to say on this....it will only be right again whenever I finally move outta this place back to a normal part of the world, and be around normal society again...with a normal time....it's hard to remember what that is like sometimes....things are just a blur here now from day to day, cause it's moving very fast-paced, but sometimes to me it just drags....not too much longer I hope....then I will be having my own going-away party here, several I imagine....I think everything has calmed down a bit now since over the weekend...it was pretty wound up and chaotic for awhile....lol I was just browsing and found this....sounds evil....HERE:Take this Advice:1. put your finger on your nose2. hold your breath for 5 seconds3. say the name of your love4. that person will ask you out on the next Friday5. you will have the best day tomorrow6. if you don't copy and paste to 2 other videos you will have bad luck and die in 2 days....lol I remember when me and my friends used to do stuff like that in school...pretty silly now it seems, but still funny to look back on, and just think that there are still others out there still doing this kind of thing.....lol...wow good memories really....allright, I'm gonna run now....take care my friends, and have a splendid week!!!! http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Lq7P4vU0810-Someday-Miley Cyrus

Wow oh Wow, whata week I've had....then to end it, I had a ton of stuff come up to go to....2 beach parties, 2 going away parties, 3 birthday parties, and a whole lot more in various magazines around here....I get begged to go to this stuff after an extremely busy week working 10 hour days cause of some military exercise, it affects me too by the way....and I'm asked over and over by others I barely even know if I"m joining them when I'm exhausted enough as it is.....by the time the week ends, I seriously don't care to go anywhere else, or do anything but go home and relax and do what I want to do.....I really have to force myself to go and join into these things whatever it is, cause I tend to get in a rut, and just stay to myself, and not even realize it cause it doesn't bother me....so it doesn't hurt once in awhile, but I really have to push myself to do any of it since I"d rather be doing something of my own than sitting at some table with a bunch of people I barely know...of course anyone who knows me at all would take the first guess that I would practically fall over myself to be on here....hmm well after all that contemplating, I went to one of the going-away parties that I got invited to here....I went to walk there since it was a nice evening, and just wanted to think to myself over everything that had happened over the week....pretty good I guess, made some everlastin' memories (wink wink !!!!) went through my internet going out, for 24 hours which about drove me outta my mind, then got it back on, going through listening to sirens going off all week long, and I was so glad when it was all finally finally over with.....I got to where I thought this was "supposed" to be at, and they had absolutely nooo idea what I was talking about, and it turns out I went to the wrong place...only me could do something like that...so I had to go back the exact way that I had come.....I got there finally, but what a lot of fuss and I'm always messing up on everything...so great that one of my friends saw me along the way and we went together since I was pretty much done thinking stuff to myself and should concentrate on where I was going here.....it was a nice time after such a very long and aggravating week....I decided to forget the other stuff that I had hanging over me, and just enjoy my weekend since my summer is going to be packed and busy enough....there is always stuff going on here, day or night, rain or shine....I don't care one way or another cause I find plenty to do on my own, and would much rather spend time with my friends on here, than with a bunch of other people I barely even know, or it's just on a "hi and bye" basis, and that's it.....Anyways....this morning I woke up to a blaring voice...I thought it was someone shouting in Arabic cause it didn't make a bit of sense to me at all, and being disoriented when you are barely awake like that, it was hard to distinguish what it was exactly.....once we figured out where it was coming from, I went to go and see more of it....it was another protest....a blue van with a huge mega phone thing on the top with someone inside, yelling things in Japanese, and then a whole line of people behind it and they would answer in Japanese...we had no idea what they were saying.....the Japanese flag was displayed on the back hanging down, with another one they made with Japanese symbols all over it, and they criss-crossed each other....it was so loud, it woke me up out of a sound sleep, and I've had a very exhausting week....it was about noon-time but still I don't want to hear some blaring voice on my day off here...it sounded like they were right under my balcony here yelling up at me....that's how loud it was...I didn't even think it was out on the street....I watched this thing with several others from here, and we took pictures of this crazy thing going on, to show a few others what we have to go through here.....it's pretty hurtful...they don't want us here honestly, and are trying to drive us out to take back their land here....that's why they are so mean and nasty to Americans....they have been that way to me ever since I arrived here in this country...I couldn't understand why exactly...then I kept hearing about these protests that happened on and off here...they really don't do anything, they just walk with signs, blare music, and all shout things in Japanese, like we know what they are saying in the first place.....I tried to get some pictures of this chaotic thing going on, but I got the tail end of it, since I had to run back up here and grab my camera...this isn't the first time this has happened since we've been here....it goes on several times a year....it's been so crazy all week, I didn't hear a thing about this at all....they just always tell us not to interact with them, or try and stop them if we happen to be out there when they are passing....they went all the way down circling us, then disappeared, and then I heard them again late afternoon here coming back this way....guess when they got back where ever they had started from, they were all going to go eat somewhere together....that's usually what they do after doing things together....I was so glad when this thing was over with finally, and I didn't have to hear that any longer....I don't know why they want to fight over everything and are so mean and hateful and bitter towards everyone and everything....they treat me this way, and I don't like it at all of course....so I just plain stay away from them, and only talk with them whenever I absolutely have to....not my choice of course, cause it's hurtful what they think and do to us.....no one can read what's on their signs directed at us, or understand what they are saying....we don't know what their music is saying they are blaring, we don't know what the flag says they have with the Japanese flag, we don't know any of that....maybe some do who are studying this language, or can find someone Japanese kind enough to tell them the mean things that are going on right in front of us, but in some way, I feel that I am better off not knowing....I just never went through any of this before with the protesting every few months, and yelling around at us in another language...it's pretty scary...I'm just glad that attacks don't break out or anything....they aren't violent or start any fighting, they just chant stuff, and keep going.....it's still pretty hurtful having to see this type of thing....no one else understands it, unless they also are living it, or have been through it before....it's all political stuff, nothing that I can do anything about, or understand it all really.....I'm sure we'll see this again at least 2 more times this year....well, I think I"ve talked enough for one night...I hope everyone is having a fabulous weekend and nothing like that is going on where ever you are...take care and come say hi to me whenever you can...miss u all know u are thought of!!!!!!xoxoxohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=q4wVe6IwRow-I Wish-JoDee Mesina (gorgeous song!! hope u all enjoy!!!)

ho hum another week...well soo what else is new??? It's been raining here on and off, and now it's unbelieveably disgusting and extremely humid....I'm dreading the summer here for a 3rd year in a row...it's hard to believe I still have one more to suffer through after this one....I thought that last year was bad enough....I hope everyone had a fabulous weekend...mine went tooo fast as always, but not much I can do about that....just counting the days until vacation in a few months...can't wait can't wait....everyone will get to come with me, and I hope can see me in my hotel room there in Tokyo which would make it even more exciting to talk with you all....so I'm not doing anything until then cause I don't wanna mess anything up etc...etc....same thing here mostly happening as usual work day after day....there's a beach party here this weekend....not sure if I will go yet, maybe just to stop by and see how it is, then leave....not much to do at those but hang out which gets boring after so long esp just being in the heat, and I don't really care to be inviting sunburns to attack me....so we'll see just don't know yet really....I kind of decide those things at the last minute just to get pics and stuff like that, then head out....don't really care a thing about what goes on here at all....it's usually the same stuff, and there's nothing too exciting about it....nothing that is going to change or benefit my life anymore now than it already is so I don't worry about it....These last few months have just been flying by... I can't believe that summertime is just a few weeks away now....I'm somewhat thrilled to see how much faster this year is flying by than the last to make the time go faster here....I've pretty much reached my wits end of this place...I've fully decided that Japanese people are the most rudest people on the planet earth....I had to call something early this morning and of course got someone Japanese with limited very bad English, and there was some sort of misunderstanding, I got yelled at, and they were just sitting there arguing with themselves calling me names and I don't know what else they were saying to me in Japanese, then just slammed the phone down on me and hung up....(???) okay so what was that about?????? These people are supposed to be nice and polite??? okay whatever....maybe they appear that way, but I definately know better, and have been around them wayyy tooo long to buy that ever....I would never go and treat someone that way ever, and I never slam the phone down on anyone, and just hang up on them if I don't understand something or call them names in another language......I really can't stand living here around people who act this way, and want everyone to believe they are all practically saints or something and never do anything wrong....I tell plenty on whenever they do something to me, and I don't make any of it up....pretty hurtful I think, with me being the foreigner over here, not understanding a lot of stuff that goes on here, not knowing this whacked up whatever language whoever thought that up, and don't even start with the food stuff.....not impressed, don't care so it's great to find others who see it the same way as I do....what rotten people, but I don't let something like that ruin my day....they definately wouldn't like it if they were to come to the United States and have someone American talk so hateful to them on the phone, call them names, yell at them, and then hang up on them cause they don't understand them....anyways....just to give everyone out there some inside info on what goes on here and how the locals act since I have to live around it....hmm I'm kinda hesitant on going home cause I left a sack of food by the door I meant to take with me, and of course forgot the whole entire thing...I recently went and had my cats shaved for the summer, so they are pretty much bald and funny looking I think, but as hot as it gets here I made it something I do every year now...they are still kind of mad at me....I don't doubt for a minute they have ripped into that by now, and have made a mess of what was in there....lunchmeat, cheese and japanese noodles......not just that, but probably dragged it around the house playing with it to get back at me....that's what I get for always running late and forgetting things....somehow everyone else thinks it's funny but it gets annoying to me....so I'm just hoping it's not tooo badddd....such wishful thinking I have right??? lol.....I"m not at home right now, so I"ll have to post pics and stuff like that whenever I do get home and put the finishing touches on this and all that other jazz....I gotta run now, just wanted to drop in and say hi to everyone....have a fabulous week and drop in and say hi to me when you can!!! miss u all!! take care!!!! xoxoxo p.s. by the way, I'm finally over with whatever it was that I had a couple weeks back!!!! still have no idea what it was but I get sick over anything and everything from being on a boat to just looking at something I can't stand....so it's nothing new to me really lol.....talk with u all soonnnnnn......xoxoxoxoxoxoxo=)

Finally it's the weekend again and I can have a chance to get caught up on things and do what I want....hey all what's going on...I'm so sorry that I kind of got off track on this thing over this last week...I'm always always gone anymore, and it's sooo late when I get home anymore, that the evenings just fly by....I hope the rest of my time flies by here just as the time has because of the ridiculous time difference that I have to put up with while living here...hmm it's getting closer and closer to summer and already starting to get dreadfully hot....this mess sent me to the hospital twice last year cause of heat exhaustion, I really hope that doesn't happen this year again, cause I don't want the attention and everyone staring at me...hmm not much has been going on here as usual...there's stuff going on all the time here day and night, every single day of the year, but really I don't care what it is....I turn down going to stuff all the time here, or I just don't want to be around it...We have 2 beach parties coming up here this month...I go to get pics, kind of try and enjoy myself, but that's about it, cause I won't touch whatever it is they are cooking out, won't even look at it, and that's pretty much it...I tried to eat cookout food at a thing like that I went to about a year ago here, and was sick for a week cause I never eat that stuff ever....quite a change going from nice restaurants with dinner music to just going through a line down some picnic tables and getting whatever you want with flies and ants all over the place.....perhaps I can get more video of us goofing around and stuff like that everyone else really not me...the ones who are brave enough to do that and then get it sent around to everyone here and who knows where else....so I"ll see how it turns out and what happens whenever it does....just looking for more to put on here, cause everything is just kind of in a slump right now....not much going on, it's getting to hot to even wanna think about, but I still haveta be here....I"m just thrilled to pieces that I can pick up my radio station all the way over here from back home cause I have absolutely nothing to do with this place....wow I heard the funniest stories on there the other day they were telling to one another....several infact as others started responding one after the other...one was someone couldn't get their computer to work, it wouldn't come on, wouldn't do anything, etc..etc..... and they finally looked and the thing wasn't plugged in....another was a VCR wouldn't come on, and the guy drove from the University there from Norman like an hour and a half to Tulsa, (very very far as I can remember...) to help out whoever it was having probs with the VCR, and just plugged that in and it worked just fine then....the one that about killed me it was so funny was that someone else said they were running late and couldn't find their cell phone anywhere, they were looking all over for it, but still couldn't find it....until someone told them" uhh well, you're talking on it..." no wonder I can't give those people up, or my radio station, no matter where in the world I'm placed....we act exactly alike to the max.....I've done every bit of that at some point, and didn't even realize it until someone pointed it out....I've been through going on and on and on about how something doesn't work it won't do anything, I hate the stupid thing, it should have never been invented, it was a dumb invention anyways cause it doesn't work to begin with and finally I get someone to look at it, and all they do is plug it in, and the thing works then....and of course we have a huge laugh and I'm the one getting poked fun at, but all in good taste and everything like that.....I couldn't find my cell phone either before, I was looking all over for it, going from room to room frantically looking and of course running late, and then look down and the thing is in my hand and I'd been holding on to it the whole time....Same thing happened this morning with our treadmill, trying to set it up to workout, turned it on, it wouldn't do anything nothing, until we noticed the cord just laying there.....so glad I have others to laugh about that kind of stuff with, and it's even greater to know I'm not the only one on earth who does stuff like that.....wow that all was just too funny, but I get a kick out of anything like that so it doesn't take much for me....I found these pics about a week or so ago, and have been meaning to put them on here when I finally got a chance to....now I finally do, so I'll put them on here while I'm actually thinking about it.....this is some parking garage in Germany that somehow got passed onto me...Italy wasn't this outrageous, at least not in the ones I got exposed to while being there, but still it was quite an eye-opener....I can't remember what town it was, or what exactly we were doing there, but it was just one of those flat ones in levels not like this...this is the first time that I've seen one of these...didn't even know one of these actually exsisted!!!! hmm I went to this movie last night....http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SqXnowJjfDc it pretty much scared me to death but felt sooo good to get out and do something for once finallyyyyy besides just work then home or going to dinner or something like that.....pretty much shook me up pretty bad, and reminded me of another one that took place in the woods like that, another reason why I can't stand living out in the middle of nowhere in small nothing towns, or going in the woods on some camping trip....I never know what could happen or what could.......we only get a few movies here at a time, so I'm glad to see whatever I can cause I'm so bored with this place....hmmm not too much else is going on here, as you can see I'm scraping like crazy to find things to talk about right now, but just wanted to drop in and catch up with everyone.....I hope everyone is enjoying their weekend to the fullest, and doing what they like....I am, but still feel like time is going far too fast as always.....okay I'm gonna take off now, take care everyone and I"ll talk with u all soon when you get a chance to stop by and say hi to me!!! bye for now!!http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jQDLvcdUBic! xoxo

A man and his ever-nagging
wife went on vacation to Jerusalem. While they were there, the wife passedaway. The undertaker told the husband, "You can have her shipped home for$5,000, or you can bury her here, in the Holy Land, for $150." The manthought about it and said he would just have her shipped home.
The undertaker asked, "Why would you spend $5,000 to ship your wife home,when it would be wonderful to be buried here and you would spend only$150?"The man replied,
"Long ago a man died here, was buried here, and three days later he rosefrom the dead. I just can't take that chance."

Hi again I hope that everyone had a good weekend....I on the otherhand have been completely miserable the last few days since the last time that I was on here.....I thought all that was just from a piece of cake, which I'll never be able to look at the same way again, much less ever crave after the feeling it gave me......I was told just a few hours ago (cause I got tired of whatever it was hanging on to me) that I could have a touch of that Swine Flu stuff that is going around the whole entire country...hmmmm my radio station said it is world wide now, and the last time anything this big that was "worldwide" was the "Macarana". I was pretty young then, but they always find a way to joke about anything...unlike this place.....At least this hit me a few days after my birthday cause last year I was sitting in the hospital on my birthday....not fun....That was from a trip I'd went on, and they dragged everyone on it to Kokasai Street...I cared nothing for this at all.....It is nothing but walking and walking and walking up and down a very long drawn out street, and shopping all along the sides from things they have set up.....wouldn't mind too much, but it was just soooo hot then, and too much walking, and I ended up laying down in a restaurant booth for the 4-5 hours that everyone else was doing that....two trips back to back one day after another is too much, and it is so dirty and conglomerated here.... I care nothing

about going back to that place cause the same thing happened twice both the times that I went there....I am doing better than I was, but doesn't surprise me that I have to catch what

everyone else is trying to avoid just to give them an excuse to avoid me....okay whatever then...I found these articles earlier today and thought I would put them on here since I"m always obsessing about everything and then want to tell everyone else about it then....http://www.sheerbalance.com/brettsblog/2008/04/18/5-ingredients-to-avoid/ http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/user-post-sugar-8-shocking-facts-454190/ hmm guess I"m doing better than I was a few days back, but still don't like the sick feeling altogether.....It's hard to believe the weekend has already come and gone, and it's going to be just another lonnnnngggg weeekkk uuhhhggg I think it's worse when nothing ever happens here, and it's just the same exact junk day after day week after week.....I tend to steer clear of certain ones here, cause they want to go walking in a group, and then hollar out at guys driving by with the windows down, and then they all look at me like I'm the one who did it.....my friend back home used to do that and I couldn't stand it then, and still can't... I don't get why they want to do that, then I'm the one who gets the attention for it, when that is the last thing that I want esp at this place.....that's what I have to put up with being around others who are dragging behind me in the age category......hmm next month is summer, but it is already starting to get hot here....it will be nice to go swimming again, but not at these disgusting beaches they have around here....resort maybe because they tend to keep them up 24 hours......I will go to one again soon, just for a break from here, and to be reminded what it's like, and that there is still life out there in other parts of the world, and not just here......I hope everyone is doing better than I am now, and we can have a chat soon....have a fabulous week, and let me know how you're doing!!! take care!!!!! =) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Cpewg0LDG8E&feature=related- Twilight_Pieces

First day of a new month, and I have to start it off being sick of course.....doesn't surprise me I always get sick over everything and I can't stand that feeling....Anyways...Happy May to everyone.....new month finally again....only 17 more here to go for me....that seems like forever, but sometimes time here just seems to drag, others it just seems to fly by....I'm so glad it's the start for the weekend and I finally get some time to myself and get wonderful sleep as well....I'm still in my last stages of being sick so I haven't felt like doing much, but I still went into my work, cause I have too much going on etc...etc....I guess that's what I get for having extremely rich rich rich chocolate cake with nuts when I never touch nuts ever, then chocolate icing, and also chocolate syrup and whipped cream on it.....yuk just thinking about it makes me gag now, and I didn't even have it all...just a few bites and I was sick the whole day....sooooo noooo more of that....Anyways....I hope everyone else is doing fine...I just missed a 3 day festival going on back home.....it's over with now there, but I kept hearing all about it on my radio station here online, and what was going on, and ahhhhhhh just tooo unfair I can hardly stand to talk about it....We have nothing like that here ever, or course it wouldn't be of any interest to anyone over here, self- centered and self-loathing individuals can never take a chance with anything different...They are about to have some big festival here that last *one* lousy day......whenever some of ours lasted nearly a whole week......>=( I"m trying not to think about it but it's really hard not to, cause this time of year so much is going on....it's just hard to take kind of being over here so far away, and for so long....I was looking through my book earlier, "1000 places to see before you die" not that I like to dwell on dying or anything, but it has the whole world in there including places that hardly anyone has ever heard about before, even me....I can check quite a few, but still would love to make it more....that takes a lifetime of course....most people would consider it a complete waste of time to just want to travel around to different places just to be able to check them off in some book, but I love it, and to be able to look back on the ones I've been to....Even that is hard to look at right now, because I am so isolated over here and everything....It's more of a rush to be able to check off more and more places each and every year, but I haven't been able to do that lately over here......hopefully soon end of next year whenever I am finally handed my plane ticket outta here, cause the inbetween part is always hard to predict what is going to happen...I don't have a problem with it, just get to go more places, and see more, get stuck for several days etc...etc......so I'm already thinking what could possibly happen to go wrong just to make it more interesting....can't decide if that's right or wrong to do that, but can't stand anything to be boring where it drives me outta my mind...hmmm I can't say much is happening here now, or there is I just simply don't care about it....there's always something going on here 24 hours 365 days a year in some town or somewhere else....I find plenty to do so I care nothing about what they have going on here ever....I don't think most here want anything to do with someone who is up to reading 6 books at time, and always working on my own things or writing to my friends whenever they just want to stand around hanging out in some parking lot....(??????) so we're just fine staying away from each other and it doesn't bother anyone at all....okay I'm gonna go now and see what else I can get done while I actually am at home and have time to myself....I hope everyone has a fabulous weekend and we get to chat sometime when time allow....Happy Spring to you all!!!!xoxoxoxohttp://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7QJeKfRlk0w-The Best I Ever Had-State of Shock( like the song but this video just kind of creeps me out.....=p )