hi everyone happy weekend...I have no idea what has been up with this website, but it was completely messed up for me like the past 2-3 days...this is really hard to believe, not so much now that I've been living in Alaska for nearly a year now, but we got our very first snow fall of the season last night!!! it has been raining here non-stop for like the past 3 weeks, stopping then starting up again...everything was sooooo wet outside, that it wasn't really doing anything just falling but not sticking...then this morning I got up and ran to look outside, and everything was just covered in snow...it was only a dusting, not even ankle deep, but still it was snow!!!!!!!! and that's something that I haven't seen much of ever always living in disgusting hot climates...(dust storms, rotting palm trees, blowing sand, broken glass, broken up shells, indescribable sunburns, 110+ degree temperatures...) I can go the rest of my life and never miss any of that ever again...the mountains though are completely covered in snow now..not just at the tops...from the top all the way to the middle now...wow it's exciting to see the very beginning of winter here in Alaska...I'm thrilled to see our next snow fall and hope that it's much faster, and actually sticks around here until April...it is sooo much colder now than it has been the whole month..water actually freezes outdoors now..so all of this is a first for me, getting snow in September, and me liking it and being around others ( not everyone though) who also like it...I always seem to meet that one miserable soul that is a regular "thorn-in-your-side individual who always has to run everything down no matter how much good there is in it...I talked and talked and talked soooo much the other day before my class, that before the end of the day was over, and also into the next day, I was on my way to loosing my voice again...my throat was scratchy, and no matter how much I tried the "ahem" how you clear your throat, or how much I would drink, nothing would work...that happens to me like every other week though so I'm used to it by now...these people are the most miserable, negative, rude, boring, taking up a space in the world that could very well be used for someone who is actually worth the space, and someone who has something to contribute to the world other than their miserable complaining...I talk non-stop...sometimes are much more worse than others...other times, so so, then there's always the times where it seems like I'm the only one in the room who doesn't know a word of English...I got to talking with someone asking the same old garbage, "where are you from? what's your name? how long have you been here in Alaska? do  you like it here?? blah blah blah...I get they are from Florida and can't stand it here...I said that I absolutely LOVED IT here in Alaska, this is the best place that I have ever lived in my entire life, (besides Italy), and so this is like heaven on earth to me since I've always been in very hot climates...they just kind of looked at me with their mouth open, and couldn't believe what I was saying...I get a very hateful responce... "YOU LIKE IT HERE!?!?!?!" I again said "yes I love it here!!!!!!" like I care who is from Florida and who isn't...I kind of got an eye roll then ignored for the rest of the time I was there...oh well...just another one on my list who hates me...I have nooooooooo idea what is wrong with this website, I can't change my font, or colours of anything, or add any pics...so hopefully this will be working again right tomorrow..'night everyone...

I really just feel like screaming for the rest of the night, so I have no idea why I'm on here...oh yah, I live on here by the way, so nothing new there...so I just found out today that for the 2nd time in my life that I have to get braces all over again...I had the regular nasty kind whenever I was a kid, until I was about 13...14 years old...that has been foreverrrrrrr so everything has changed of course, shifted, and almost back to how it was before I had got my first ones...so I"m thankful that technology and more self-conscious people like me figured out a way to make those nasty things invisible...so another 2-3 years of that nasty stuff but it won't be as bad as the first, but still it's just the fact that I have to go through it all over again...so I'm not really saying a whole lot now, just my friends are the first ones to know anything besides me knowing first, and everyone else won't find out until after that misery has already happened and I'm right in the middle of it...not something that I really care to keep talking about when I'm mad over this whole thing to begin with!! not so sure why this is all happening in Alaska though...probably because junk Japan would never do anything but yell at you if you didn't understand them...I doubt they still haven't accepted yet that the entire world just doesn't speak Japanese like they do...I think that I"ll return to my self-pity party and then be right back on here in about half an hour once I've gotten it all out from letting this sink in..not one of my best days though!! :(

FINDING OUT WHO HATES ME ONLINE BUT I REALLY DON'T CARE!!!!

well I'm satisfied with my results!!

I just read through my other one that I did late late last night (this morning really really early???) and I just realized how much junk English that I messed up on, and half of it doesn't make a lick of sense...sorry everyone...try ranting and raving like I do at 3-6 in the morning and see how clear everything is then...I think that I've finally calmed down from such idiot people that I was around yesterday, but wow when I get stuck being around them I go completely insane...That is why I hang out at my college campus sooo much whenever I am there...I really really can't stand to be around stupid people like that for 1 minute....Next fall I can finally go again after the bad weather is gone, our summer vacation...(yes we are already planning it!!!!!!!) not sure what else, then college classes again for the rest of the year and then it's Christmas again...forget the total idiots out there..I said that I don't have time for them!! Again it is cold here again...52 degrees now...Yesterday was like 42 degrees....I wanted to go outside sooo bad that it actually hurt...It's not raining, but it's chilly out and once you get out in the open, you can feel the wind and it's freezing...We've started getting in falltime about mid-July...so 6 months of snow until it's kinda sorta warm again...I love it though...me and heat just do not agree with each other...so dinner tonight will be at a more I guess you would call it "kicked back" place where everything and everyone isn't so freaking formal on everything...the ones when they find out that it's your birthday they come and yell it around and shout the "Happy Birthday" song around your table...Something that I never ever want done to me ever again...I guess that it's okay whenever you are a kid, but I don't want to be noticed when I go out...I can't stand the attention and everybody staring at me!!! so another week here, I"m doing my tutorials here online cause I just don't feel like going to the Art Studio here, and having to put up with other people talking to each other, to me, (nice try) and stand behind me watching what I'm doing when I have absolutely NO IDEA that they are standing there...then they start talking about some movie that they saw this or that in whatever it is that I'm doing, and comparing me to that, and then think it's funny, and of course gets everyone else to laughing, and that is about the time that I walk out...so I can actually concentrate here at home and do what I want without these guys whom I don't even know making fun of me in a roundabout way....I think that I will keep this up since cold weather will soon be setting in, and I really don't wanna be getting out in it...talk to you all later when I get back home...hopefully I won't talk so much this next time where it is hanging off the page...

Wow I just can't believe how quickly this weekend is flying by...this is the very last week of September, and this time next week we will be going into October...scary to think about, and then it's only 2 more months until Christmas...We have already gotten all of our Christmas shopping DONE!!!! 2 sacks of all Alaska stuff to send back home to everyone, I couldn't forget me of course since I love Alaska anything, and still have to go back for my sweatshirts and Alaska flag to hang on the wall since it was a huge pain to carry everything and still go and get lunch and carry that out...

It was all like Alaska dvd's small Alaskan ornaments, Alaska children's books for my nieces back home and also for my students, Alaskan coloring/reading/activity learning books...not sure what to call those where kids learn how to write letters and recognize them...I had never seen this stuff all related to one place, country or state...so this is a first and of course I went crazy on it...oh and also an Alaskan tool called a "ULU" (u-loo) that is a rounded blade with a wooden handle with a carved picture of Alaskans theme on it...I am not very good at explaining anything, so I will just post a pic on here...I am getting 2 more cause I have set aside an entire book shelf for nothing but Alaska anything and everything, and it's already stocked full of both big and small things..

Guess that I will be starting a 2nd bookshelf next year for the same thing...me and my collection disease...it is getting soo cold here day by day now..it rained for 3 weeks on and off, it would stop in between every few days, then it would start raining again....we are going to get snow already either end of this month or first part of October..it will be a blast though to finally be able to go outside again and actually have FUN without trying to dodge rain and hail cabs when traffic is too heavy to go certain places...hmm so dinner plans last night was of course Italian cause I miss Italy soo much sometimes I still dream of everything there, (streets, houses, Venice, Verona, Pisa, Roverado In Piano, (small town we lived in..very strange name for a town though...)  and just everything that I was around there...so I decided we go to this one Italian restaurant that we only went to one other time before once we got here....

I didn't really care for the attitude then, and thought that after about 6-7 months it would have changed...not quite...they were still very stuck up acting, and shoved us over in the corner all by ourselves while everyone else was sitting in the "nicer" part...then I found out that people go to this Italian place right before they go to the Symphony here, or one of the other Performing Arts like the Opera, performances, and I"m not sure whatelse...Those are every single weekend until the spring I believe and I wouldn't even have to think twice how much tickets would be for just one of those...We may go to like 1 or 2 of ones that I absolutely just HAVE to see, or go to...but any more than that will have to wait until next year..then of course came my favourite part ( I mean that in a sarcastic way of course) placing my order to this sour miserable bitch who had a problem with me from the very beginning...I said I didn't want dressing on my salad just PLAIN, nothing on it, no oils flavour enhancers, nothing..I have to say all that like 3-4 times cause they have done just the very opposite before just to make me mad and thought that it was funny...

I usually get an "okay' to my very picky eating choices, but this troll just stands there and attacks me by asking me "why do you want it that way??? why don't you just get this other one and hold the dressing on that???) yah whatever...with all the tomatoes and onions and cucumbers and oils, and chopped up olives, and probably spit from the guy in the back for pissing him off so much on my choices..so strike #1 embarrassment sets in and I feel it in my stomach then I couldn't feel anything...I asked for my Italian meal also to be plain without any of that nasty disgusting maranara sauce with heavy meat all through it..again I get her arguing with me..."you don't want any sauce" I said "no I really don't like anything I just order and want everything plain I have no idea why the hell you are questioning me about everything..I am the one who's going to be eating it, so I want everything as plain as it comes..." then I get "well what do you want on it!?!?!"


OMG, WTF did I just say!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was sooo mad and wanted to just get up and leave this stupid place I felt so embarrassed and couldn't see, everything went blurry, my stomach felt like I was about to give a speech, (never happening for me by the way), and I couldn't feel my legs at all..I just kept looking down wishing all this would be over and I could be here in my house again without these total idiot people harrassing me like that over my food choices...then somewhere inbetween all that, I hear " you all, or we are"( not sure if she said it or my husband said it cause my hearing was shut down too, so I had no idea what was going on after being harrassed in public like that...) are weird people..." so that was it for me on that little embarrassing episode!!!!!!!!!!!

oh I was mad...how dare anyone question me about what I like and don't like, and "why don't I get this instead or this other thing" or why don't I want this, or "what do I want on it" cause I really really really don't like anything...that is why I only have vitamins, water, Sprite, plain bread, fruit , and my protein shakes to keep me from totally wasting away...I still felt sick for the rest of the time we were there, and couldn't even see straight hardly when we got up to leave....then once I got out of there, I still get a very fake smile and I wanted to bust this other bitch there right in the chops for also having a part in harrassing me like that...and once I finally got outdoors, I let it rip yelling "yah like I'll ever be back here again!!! suck on that!!!!!!!!!!!!"


 I am still fuming and posting this all over the internet to tell what they did to me while I was there...I do not like being questioned over anything esp. food choices of any kind, or telling me to get one thing and not another, or still trying to push some vomit looking sauces at me whenever I completely made it clear that I hate just about everything...I tried to make up for it with ice cream at another place, and me going on my Alaskan shopping spree later today, but I still feel totally embarrassed out of my mind for these idiots putting me through that just because I guess really "high up people" go to this place...uggh sooo not me...


I can't stand those tightass places like that where you have to be all proper every single minute cause I'm too much of a rebel deep down to be told what to do and what to like esp. by total strangers who hate me to begin with anyways...so!! I"m totally done with that place...never again will I be questioned like that because I don't like anything and they try and make me look like the stupid one with everyone around...So I'm getting to word out to everyone else to be a back-talker like I am and smart off anyway that you want if someone who is supposed to be listening to you but refuses to listen to you and tries to do the "parent thing" (also not for me!!!!!!!!!!) to not be afraid to stand up to these rotten scoundrals!!! ahhh never again for me!!!!!!!!!

 I still don't hardly like anything I don't care what anyone says to me, or tells me!!! this is one reason why I got accepted into my group "picky eaters unite!!!" no one else understands this issue but the ones going through it in life!! It really is very difficult and not fair but I guess it sure does get us all attention....for me, I prefer not to even be noticed in public cause someone always embarrasses me half to death...ahh I'd better get to bed now..it's after 5am, and I"ve been talking for about 2 1/2 hours...I could keep going on but guess I have to cut it off sometime...the pic that I am putting on here is of an Alaskan "ULU"...I have never seen them anywhere else and love them...I won't use the one I got of course until I get 2 more to set up for souveniers and just use one...there are always things out there that I love and that are sooo pretty but I will never use them because I never want to mess them up...'night everyone!!!

(very sllloooowwwly learning to play this gorgeous song on my keyboard!!! the first solo part that you hear starting out is just C-D C-D C-D over and over until it gets to the middle part which goes really really fast when trying to learn something like this!! love it though!! I guess it will get much easier over time!!!)

It has been doing nothing but RAINING here for the last 3 weeks straight...It rains non-stop then the sun comes out little while, then it starts raining again...We are in flood warnings now with several other counties..all this rain has made the rivers and streams rise and tv stations keep cutting out..I've still got electric but it is never certain how long it will last with all these storms going on, or if it will last at all...About another week of this, maybe less time than that and all this rain will then turn into snow and will last about until April...then it's just chilly the rest of the year...So it's mostly getting into all indoor activities right now until the snow comes and I can go outdoors again and have my fun snow-mobiling, and sledding, inter tubing down the hills, (possibly skiing) but I have noooo idea about that since me standing up on something that I have no control over kind of scares me to death just thinking about it...hmm and I also want to try the dog sled races...me doing that, yes we have a track for that and mostly cause I want to laugh my head off on how that looks, and at how I will look in those pics...We'll also have the dogsled races going through downtown as they travel across Alaska into like Canada, and not sure where else..But it is a race, and they have someone who comes in first place..I'm not sure what they get though...so winter-here is the fun time...just a few more weeks so I absolutely can not wait hardly!!! I still can't stop with making my own personal radio station on here cause I always keep finding new music...I've decided to just concentrate fully on my college classes again (staying up all hours trying to just finish one project and still not being satisfied with it but then mine turns out to be the best in the class...) so again work will come later but I will still get through more classes and can't wwwwwwwaaaiiittt to start at University of Alaska Anchorage or (UAA) it will go much faster than I think cause this year is almost over with and we just moved here this year...ahhh and I will be DONE with Physiology by that time so I will have my life back (kinda sorta) and won't have to worry about disgusting stuff that I really really don't care about or care to know...muscles and observations of the human skeleton... (shuttering) I'm not into all that science stuff so that is complete torture to me if anyone else can understand that...I am always taking classes cause I just love them so much..wanna get through the boring ones though so then I can go back to having fun...'night everyone...no more 4am for me anymore at least for awhile...another rainy weekend for us here in Alaska...good sleeping weather though!!!!!

(Crying All The Way Just Thinking About This!!!)

I've got my Physiology class in like 6 hours and I'm already dreading it...Only 4 more months until I complete everything for that class and get my certificate for it then I don't ever have to worry about it anymore...I'm soooooooooo bored in that having to hear about muscles (gross) picking up replicas of muscles to see how heavy they are.. (even more gross) seeing chunks of fat and picking up and feeling holding this rubber mass of yellow fat...I want to throw up but that is what is involved..Also regular tobacco and chewing tobacco mess that scares me to death just looking at it...there's too many pictures of that and I really just about want to throw up...having to listen to over and over and over again about disgusting processed foods, refined sugars, watching youtube videos on all this and having to put up with the weather messing up their connection so it makes it longer and also causes us all to stay longer... (which drive me absolutely out of my mind since I want to take off and be on here...I may be sitting there silent, but I am actually killing them all in my head for taking up my time...oh and don't forget the ones who sit there and act completely stupid asking one question after another when they clearly see that I totally want to get the (>:) } outta there...) and it only makes me draw more on the handouts they gave us...I can't draw to save my life...it's mostly just hearts, flowers with swirly vines going all around the page, my name in 15 different letter designs, my thoughts on how bored I am... (example: "omg, somebody please help me.I am sooo bored and surrounded by idiots and gross stuff...) or "why does that one guy keep staring at me again with his friends over there?? omg they are soo freaking me out!!! somebody please help again..." or "omg I am sooooooooo tired...somebody please help" or my famous one "I want to get the (ta-dah!!) outta here and chat with my friends!!!!!!! :'( I'm sure the ones next to me have seen most of that and think I'm unbelievably weird..Oh well...guess it's back to drawing hearts, stars, puffy clouds, rainbows, and try and draw that hilarious owl again until I get it right...I did 2 pages of that thing the other night cause I could not stop laughing over it...I will draw more the best I can cause it's just so funny and post it all on here..I really really really can't draw though...my students can draw better than I can and it's just no fair!!!  (ahhh I will finish this sometime today!!! it's after 4am now and I've got class in a few hours!!! me and staying up the whole night to get work done!!! here's to getting stared at for 2 hours straight...when I finally leave there I will feel like strangling someone..I guess that's what my stuffed animals are for...oh well... 'night everyone!!! :)  xxx

(insert haunted house screaming here) this happens to me every single time that I go anywhere here and it makes me feel so freaking weird that I just about wanna throw up...try putting up with weirdos that you don't even know just sitting there staring at you...they never say anything..you catch them staring just in a very obsessive way, and then it just becomes so twisted that I just get up and move somewhere else with my back to whomever it was...I think the next time that happens I will just go up to them stick my hand out for a greeting to shake hands with them and me be the one to start up a conversation...I think then the awkwardness would go away then kinda sorta maybe and then I coud stop screaming and finally get my voice back....

This Is Why I Live In Anchorage, Alaska!!!

(and that is why I will never again in my life live in another small town like I did back in Italy cause I went about half-way crazy by the time I left there...Japan wasn't better at all, but it was big city but everything was in Japanese so I always had no idea what was going on or what anyone was talking about...I live for concerts and they always had concerts every single weekend on the street corners downtown, and I couldn't even enjoy those...all in Japanese of course..I would always yell out for them to "play something country" or "play something in English" or "learn about what real music sounds like" it was such an enormous crowd no one had any idea that it was me, since I kept walking and pushed my way past all that noise...now I've landed in Anchorage, Alaska, one of the biggest cities ever, and I couldn't be happier..no more small towns, no more misery, no more language barriers, no more of me getting lost and trying to ask for directions in Italian and they still had no idea what I was talking about cause my Italian was so broken up like someone whose first language isn't English and it's difficult to pronounce everything correctly...no more dealing with rude Japanese people yelling at me just because I didn't understand what they were saying or I didn't know what was going on, hated their food, that climate, that island, just that everything...never again will I step foot into a life like that again, and I'm definetely never going near a small town again...I didn't even talk to those people but somehow they knew all about me, and didn't like me of course, so I really couldn't wait to leave there..I loved Italy, but again I couldn't stand the people that I was forced to be around...total nightmare..I have no idea how or why I always get stuck with being around such miserable losers...now that I finally have my life back being in an English-speaking place and being forever away from Japanese anything, I think that I"m finally getting back to normal...wow I'm glad I have my friends on here to keep me sane cause I was about to go out of my mind at those other places that I was at...no one else can understand this unless they have lived it, and I am sooo nottt a small town person, and most definately not an island person...put those together and it's an instand recipe for drug use and suicide...those happened back to back to back at both of those places that I was at...poor souls...all they had to do was get out of those towns and they would have been just fine like I am now...

hey all...another day here in Alaska...we are having killer storms again here...crazy winds, rain, and we never know what is going to happen next...we had something like a typhoon, tornado, cyclone, hurricane, whatever part of the world you are from they are all the same, but called different names...I have been through every single one of those, including earthquakes back in Japan, so I don't even blink anymore when these happen...last time that we had this, it broke trees in half and threw them all over, and turned some cars over...it took them about a week and a half to clean everything up...there are still trees here laying across the creeks here that are too heavy to move right now when it keeps raining everyday now..not so sure if we will lose power again but I guess that is something that I will just have to get used to with all the upcoming storms that we are going to have all winter long...we are expecting snow about the end of this month or early next month so we're already discussing what to get for winter clothes...not sure exactly since I have always lived in killer hot climates so all this will be new for me once again...this is excellent weather though to get a ton of stuff done so looks like that is what I will be working on today...love how my page turned out though, and wow I did this all on my own even though it may have taken me about 20 times to get it right since everything I had just done kept going back to the previous one...I'm finally getting where I'm not completely helpless though..such a great feeling by the way!!! ciao everyone until next time..just hope the storms don't interrupt my internet again...

I laughed toooooooooooo hard on this that I feel like I'm going to be sick...Even if I tried this it would look nothing like the 2nd one at all cause I can't draw to save my life...I can do everything else Art-Related but draw...Mine would look like the kids (first one) then me and everyone else that I was with couldn't catch our breath from laughing so hard at the thing...yeah I wish that I could draw like that, and this is just way too funny...wow some people have such talent..not me of course...I think I have to go outside to catch my breath...bbs!!!***this is impossible to make any larger than this without it hanging half way almost to the end...click on the pic to see/read the whole thing...I have to stop looking at it at least for tonight so I can try and sleep for a few hours...*****https://www.facebook.com/#!/ sorry I just had to do it and keep talking about this...I just tried drawing this owl like that said, and it looks like something about a 5 year old would draw..I didn't even come close to that...so that's why it's too funny for me...I think that I will save this along with some others I want to try and do, and download every one of them for laughs once we get another printer since this one is completely shot from moving around and the movers banging it around so much and deliberately dropping it...not sure why I find such stupid random things to unbelievably funny nowadays...wow this never happened whenever I was in Japan...

 

 

 

 

I FINALLY GOT RID OF THAT DISGUSTING GREEN COLOUR!!!!!!!!!!! now that I've actually had time from being tooo busy all month..I finally got the chance to sit down and play around with this!!!!!!! and yes I always get my way on things!!! looks like this proves it!!! :D 'night everyone!! xxxxx

Lovers of Israel

Rosh HaShanah is the Jewish New Year and begins  (16 September) at Sundown so I thought I’d share a little bit about the Holiday with you all. Rosh HaShanah begins the High Holidays!

An important part of Rosh Hashanah preparation is to ask for forgiveness from anyone one may have wronged during the previous year. As much as possible, we want to begin the year with a clean slate – and without anyone harboring a grudge against us. We should also be quick to forgive those who have wronged us.
During the High Holidays we eat round challah bread instead of the normal loaves. The reason for the loaf being round is to symbolize fullness and completion. It is customary to dip your bread in honey to symbolize your prayer for a sweet year. We also dip apples in honey symbolizing also the prayer for a sweet year.
It is customary to greet each other with the words ‘L’Shana Tova’ which means - for a good year.
The prayer is for a good and sweet year!
A big component of the Rosh HaShanah celebration is the blowing of the Shofar!!


**** "Judge not and you shall not be judged.Matthew 7:1" It is as common as written words lately. Much of the time it is used when someone has been told they believe wrong, speak wrong, etc. . "Judge not according to the appearance, but judge righteous judgment. John 7:24 We are to judge but only judge in righteousness. Sort of like seeing a man who is filthy and dirty. If we judge him by his filthy and dirty appearance only, we have judged him wrongly. he may be a man who works at a job in which filth and dirt are a part of life. Coal miners who work underground can't help but get filthy during their shift at work.We are to judge, but judge carefully and righteously. we must always remember, there is a soul at stake. We cannot judge in a hypocritical manner and be right with God..We must look at more scriptures. We are to have nothing to do with darkness other than to expose it where it manifests itself. ( Eph 5:11 And have no fellowship with the unfruitful works of darkness, but rather reprove them. Eph 5:12 For it is a shame even to speak of those things which are done of them in secret.***** 

I WANT THIS BEDROOM....

*****Say No To being B*O*R*I*N*G* !!!!!! *****

 

 

 

 

yes, this is what I do when I am really really bored in the middle of the night...or I'm starving to death,  so I download every song that I can think of from the past up until now, which is about every other one since I'm really not sure what to do in the middle of the night anyways....  (almost 4am) and no one wants to talk to anyone in the middle of the night (esp. me) so of course I come up with my own things to do...I really am getting sick of this disgusting green colour it about makes me want to throw up every time that I see it, so I guess that I will play around some more on here where I can force my own colours what I want and not black, white, green, or brown... I think I should take off now and finally get offline before I end up putting the entire internet of music on here, or keep talking until the sun starts to rise...about 3-4 more hours...'night everyone (or morning???) not sure really...see you all later today...***just thought I would include this...here is the link to the last video...(blue one) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9TcztyNlFx0

go to that link and scroll down and read the very first comment..I laughed too hard where I made myself feel totally sick...my stomach is still hurting and it's really really hard to hold back from laughing when you are trying not to make any noise...that's pretty much hopeless for me... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Why Are All These So True For Me!?!?